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radiosilence95's picture

Today was a bore. Do you ever feel like you're stuck in a rut and you're living the same day over and over again? Yeah. That's how I feel.

Amber and I don't talk as much as we use to. I don't know why. I've always been there for her. I even skipped class for her once so she could cry on my shoulder. I was more than willing to face the punishment if it meant being there for her. I've gotten too attached to her. I know this now. I depended on her for happiness. I lost sight of who I was. I love her sooo much and she'll never appreciate me as a friend. UGH! Why can't we just be like we use to be? She use to absolutely ADORE me. I'm still debating on whether or not I should ask her about things. Or maybe I should just go on pretending that nothing bothers me.

A lot of people think it's just because of my feelings for her and she needs her space. But she's known about it for seven months now. If she needed her space, she would've started acting this way a loong time ago. I just don't get it. Amber is one of the most complicated people I know. That's one of the many reasons I love her so much. You can never figure her out.

Has anybody noticed that when a girl says she's gay, guys think that's somehow "hot." But when a guy says he's gay, guys want to beat the shit out of him. What is wrong with the world?