TRIGGER WARNING: This post may contain triggers relating to low mood/depression.
I've been in an awful funk that is so hard to get out. I've been pretty depressed as of late. There are times where I'll stare at my computer screen for hours on end...not talking to anyone, not doing work, not anything. Just staring there because I can't, for the life of me, get anything done.
I've met some cool people but none that I consider people I can really confide in about stuff.
I'm in therapy three days a week still and it sucks because I heard that after this therapy, I'm going to have to switch (therapists) again. Which I hate for several reasons, especially because the individual therapist I have now is okay with me...she's fine with the queerness (and I'm able to open up about it), I've told her about my depression, my history, all the shit with my family and the bullying and shit.
I know she said she was already talking to the other group leader about me leaving end of March or so, but is there a way I can just ask her if I can be the exception and stay with her? Changing therapists makes my depression worse I've found and makes the urges go WAYYYY up. Is it an okay/legitimate question for me to ask my therapist tomorrow? I want to explain how I feel this connection to her and I've found I can confide in her.
I'm so depressed. Fuck.
Things with Dad have popped up again. And I HATE that. Especially since I've had to confront it at therapy and talk all about it. Some of the hardest stuff I've ever had to do.
Well, as you know, I'm here...