So I don't believe I've touched on this before, but I have a problem with matching my affect to my internal state...in English, this means that whatever I feel inside my head, I have trouble expressing with facial expressions and my behavior.
For example, I always smile, but that's what I do even if depressed. Or angry. Or sad. Its just natural for me.
I'm trying to work on getting better with that because then it causes for confusion...people thinking I'm doing and feeling great because of a wide grin that stretches across the length of my face, therapists thinking I'm exaggerating, or people underestimating/doubting what I say.
Basically, when I speak, my words don't match my face, or how my face *should* look when I say what I say. For example, I'll tell a therapist "I've been feeling really depressed," and this is accompanied by a smile. I don't do it intentionally/on purpose. Because I don't even realize I'm doing it.
Yeah, maybe that's why I seem to get the short end of the stick.
Its so hard...so so so hard for me.