Well, Where do I start? I'm 15, Gay, a Jew in a house of Baptists, a Liberal living in the Conservative world, and I'm the only one of the 4 gay kids I know who seem to struggle. They're so free and boundless, running around with their boyfriends and girlfriends without a care in the world, while I stay alone, desperate for someone to notice me, and bear the burdens of being a complete outsider from the southern society which surrounds me. I think I'm a decent human being, I don't hurt people, I like to laugh, I'm nice, but is that enough? Is there something I'm missing that they seem to have? Is it my weight? My skin? My hair, my eyes, my legs?? Somebody please tell me so that I can find someone to love me. Or do I have to suffer more loneliness than I already have? As if that isn't enough I have to drag myself through school, working my ass off to get scholarships, semi-outed, constantly being harassed, having words spat at me, hell actually being spat on. I swear I feel that one day somebody is going to beat the crap out of me, just for being gay. My whole universe is collapsing before my very eyes. My family's been to hell and back, I've lost so many friends because I'm gay, people constantly shove Christian philosophy down my throat, only for me to reject it and subject myself to disgraceful jokes about the Holocaust, or how "Jews are cheap, worthless, and deserved what they got from Hitler", a statement which I've heard too many a time. But, I guess I'm not alone, and I'm hoping this Oasis place will help, I'm not much of a blogger type if you will. But, it's worth a shot.