Trying To Be Who I'm Meant To Be

dude.im.a.gaf's picture

Ok so where do I start? Everytime I take one step forward, life throws me three steps back. I need to find a new job quick b/c im running out of money, and i still have to pay for university and car insurance. Me and Ricky are talking but not in public or face to face, all we seem t do is message each other on facebook. :( Wish I could get some one-on-one with him. For the past three months I've been harassed about being gay and being in weight room. Of course no one has said anything to me but I've been getting annonymous messages, things like "everyone thinks your gay", "can i take a dump on yor chest", "do you even enjoy tits, pussy and ass?" I mean come on theres been like 40 of these messages prob from the same person. One even said "Your dirtier than when i fingered my sister and found my fathers wedding band". This has gone to far. But if i say anything then thats just conferming that i am gay, which is just what this person wants! And with scholarships I've been going crazy about getting them and applying. In canada we can't get full-ride scholarships which sucks. :( My rents are fighting more than normal, my dad fucking flipped when he saw i dyed my hair an auburn-copper colour. He was pissed, but its my body and he can screw off. My birthday sucked as usual I had to stay at school till 7 at night working on the newspaper, i felt sick all day then i get home and go to bed. My rents were pissed at me they said i ruined their day, they didnt believe me that i was sick till the next day when they took me to the clinic and found out i had strep throat which was starting to get infected. They didnt apologize fo how they treated me the night b4 either. All i can do is keep hoping to find happiness....... some day.

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ferrets's picture

oh hun :(

thats all so fucked up deary. people are so messed up

*hugs* oasis loves you! remember that. and once your in college. people get less stupid about the gay stuff, and youll be around your parents less

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"

dude.im.a.gaf's picture

thanks ferrets i knw but i

thanks ferrets i knw but i still hate it. some ppl r real jackasses.
cnt wait 2 b away from the rents to they r out of control lately.

ferrets's picture

yea...

but once your gone, they will then realize what they are missing.

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"