My foolishness having been lifted by a certain Oasis member...

Ask Tell Deceive's picture

I have resolved to end my life when I get home. It's stupid of me to listen to others' reasons for living because it's my decision. It's my life and I shall do with it what I please, and in this case that means I'll finish it. Thank you, everyone, for attempting to get me to decide otherwise, but I must thank Shelby for giving me the conviction to go through with my decision without, I suppose, 'attention whoring'.

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elph's picture

Do me this favor...

Please apprise your counselor of your current intentions...

Ask Tell Deceive's picture

I don't see why... I won't

I don't see why... I won't be talked out of it.

elph's picture

Then...

...be sure that you've eased the grief of those who do care. Leave instructions with a lawyer on how to handle any un-tied ends: disposition... financial... memorial?

Reflect upon the pain others will experience... Can you feel it? Or, do you think there will be rejoicing?

I acknowledge that that last comment was facetious and unkind... but, I'm hoping for some tactic that will have a positive effect... no smiley here!!!

I'm hoping that you will reflect sincerely upon the finality of what you're threatening to do... not just to yourself... but, to others...

Riku's picture

LOOKLOOKLOOK.

You life is worth so much. You don't understand. You and everyone you're connected to or will be one day... You'd be hurting so many people. All of the people you'd never meet, the people you'd never love and the people you'd never help by just being there. All of the people you'd hurt by taking your life away.

You need to live through this time in your life so that you can grow past it. So that you can look back and say "I'm glad I survived" I know right now that it feels like that will never happen, but I swear to you it will. Just please please please don't do this. I'm pleading with you. You're an important person, at least to me. You are significant and we care about you.

I want you to live so that you can get to the point where you feel that life is worth living again. I swear to you that it will happen, because life -is- worth living. You're a beautiful person and the world needs you. If the world is a machine than each person is a vital part, and we all have different roles but we are all so important and each and every loss sets us back -so- far. We all change so much of the world around us just by living.

So please. It's okay to need help or attention and that doesn't make you weak. You can live through this, I know you can. You're scaring me and I'm worried about you. I can't even begin to express how worried about you I am right now.

jeff's picture

Resources...

You should also consider using some of the resources listed by clicking the Resources link above.

The Trevor Project (GLBT Youth) - 1-866-4-U-TREVOR
Suicide Hotline (General) - 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
National Crisis Helpline (General Crisis Help) - 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

Dracofangxxx's picture

Hmph, stupidass

This is the exact sort of boneriffic attitude that I'm talking about.

Calling me out? Whoosh. Now everyone's gonna hate me more. Funny that the only part you listened to in my words is the part you could twist into making your suicide more appropriate. You didn't even take my message correctly!

It's don't fake suicidal for attention
and DON'T get into a relationship "to save your life" because it'll harm that
and HAPPINESS comes from WITHIN. True happiness is something you gotta build for yourself.

Stupid! Stupid stupid stupid! How can anybody want to die so much? It's your life, so I can't STOP you, but I am deeply saddened and disappointed in your lack of enthusiasm to stay alive.

Nobody's efforts were worth it. I don't think they could have been if everyone gave 100%. So why even try? Why did you even tell us you were going to die if you had it set in your mind that nothing, absolutely nothing, will change it?

Feh. If only life was something you could give to others when you didn't want it. Then at least some good would come out of this instead of just waste of potential.
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Amazingly offensive <3

lonewolf678's picture

So,

By your logic we can say your attitude in your journal about why you are the way you are is also "boneriffic"? You are the only one allowed to have problems? Try walking a mile in a persons shoes before passing such judgement and anger in passive aggressive manner.

Dracofangxxx's picture

Hmm, I'm the way I am because I choose to be.

I don't choose to kill myself because I was beaten as a child. I choose to live despite being an asshole whenever things get tough.

You say you want Ask to live, yet you're harping on me for my methods...
Which now they say they're gonna live.

I do know what they're going through. I do have good intentions. But sometimes roughness gets a person to listen. It worked for me. I know I overdo it. I know I probably hurt too. But damn straight, I am a good person. I know that. All I want to do is help. So I do it in the only way I can right now.

Would you prefer I didn't?
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Amazingly offensive <3

radiosilence95's picture

This is nuts. I just...I

This is nuts. I just...I just don't even know what to say right now. A part of me wants to get down on my knees and give you a sappy speech about how wonderful life is and how it's full of cupcakes and rainbows.

But that would be a lie.

And Shelby wasn't trying to convince you to kill yourself. She was saying that we've all got problems, and we all have things to complain about. I could sit here and give you a 10 page essay about why I could kill myself. But no matter how bad things have gotten for me, I NEVER once considered ending my life. Because nobody can stayed depressed for their entire life.

You can't just throw your life away. It's a valuable thing that will only go to waste. And if you go through with this, I will spend much of my time wondering what you could've become if you had JUST HUNG ON.

Suicide. Is. Pointless. Completely and utterly pointless. And there's no honor or courage in it at all.

That is the truth.

Dracofangxxx's picture

<3 why are you so amazing

You say what I want to say in a totally nice and accepting way!

Also that rhymes.

BUT YES. I AGREE. THIS IS WHAT SHELBY MEANS!
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Amazingly offensive <3

lonewolf678's picture

I'm selfish,

I want you to live Ask.