I have good reasons for wanting to die. And few not to. This is a chart to explain the feelings that I have, and that I believe shows that my desires are not weak, cowardly, or stupid. They are well thought-out and weighed carefully.
Reasons to die:
1.) Reunite with deceased family and lover.
2.) Become closer to YHWH.
3.) End the pain of unwanted, hellish memories.
4.) End my addiction to drugs.
5.) Free myself from a body that I do not belong in.
Reasons not to die:
1.) It would make about three people upset.
2.) I might be in love with someone.
I think that clarifies things. Thank you.