625539's picture

My boyfriend spent 9 hours in the hospital doing tests, everything is OK but I was worried sick the whole day. He just caught a really bad virus from his dad (and his mother is starting to feel sick as well). Luckily, I seem to have an amazing immune system because I hardly ever get sick and I am never sick when he is, even if we've been intimate.

Also, I have so much to learn and memorize for my new job, in my first day of training I took about 15 pages of messy notes, I'm trying to produce something more legible in a word processing system right now and I have a full sheet of questions that I'm bringing in tomorrow. I really want to do well (because I want to keep this job) but it's hard. It's a really complicated computer system and all the regular employees just whiz through it, really.

I mean, I'm sort-of starting out on my "adult life" - I'm in a (hopefully) long-term relationship, I'm definitely the youngest in my department and likely in the entire office - and even though I don't pay for food or a place to stay, ect. I still feel really pressured. I don't ever want to have to rent a place out and I want to be on my own (or not in my parent's house, at least) in the next two years, so I'm working really hard to be able to put a down payment on a place of my own in that time. On top of that, I have a year left of CEGEP so I need to figure out what program I want to enter in university.

Another thing is that I had several creative projects planned for the summer, which I will probably not have time to do, and will be pushed back to the school year, I suppose. Then again, I need to do extra classes next term, which translates to extra work, ect.

Everything feels kind of overwhelming but I'm (relatively) confident of being able to handle it. However, I know myself well and I can get a little crazy at times. I also know that I rely a lot on my significant other for support and strength and that if things go downhill there I may or may not be able to cope with my projected lifestyle for the next two years. I mean, right now, I'm focused, I'm just worried I'll lose track of that and fall into my old ways of carelessness and confusion.


radiosilence95's picture

Keep us updated about your

Keep us updated about your boyfriend, okay? I hope he feels better.

Warning! Generic, cliched, uplifting statement ahead: You'll get the hang of it soon, dude! :P

625539's picture

thank you (-:

thank you


jeff's picture


It is their job to train you to get proficient on the computer system, not your job to go crazy trying. Our systems suck at work, but I'm paid hourly, so I just find it amusing. But if I were salaried, I would not be amused.

"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

625539's picture

they are training me

they are training me though!
I'm also paid hourly... but for the next week i'm getting money just to sit around and do nothing/listen