Me and my parents have been living in another family member's house since we moved a while back. Things took a turn for the worst back then and my parents could no longer work in their chosen professions (and therefore couldn't afford the bills), so they moved here when a family member offered them to live in her house (which she wasn't currently using because she her job moved her elsewhere) and pay what they could. Today that family member lost her job and shit's about to go downhill real fast. I think. I mean, I can only imagine. I'm stressed out, my parents are stressed out.
I've been kinda pissing around, slowly trying to figure out what I'm going to do (school or work?) Trying to figure out what I want to do as a career for the rest of my life. Now... I guess I don't have much of a choice.
Part of me is stressed out, but then part of me thinks maybe it's a good thing because it will finally push me to do something, you know? Probably the best thing for me in any situation is some pressure on me. I'm content with life and how it is now, but it isn't good for my future, and I know that. I NEED to do something, I just don't know what. I've been here for years. Maybe this push will be good for me. Get me out, actually meet people and make friends in this area (OMG CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?), actually live a full life, have romantic interests, do stuff. OMG. I don't know... part of this is sarcastic, but at the same time it's the truth. I don't want to live the rest of my life going on and on about how I don't know what to do, or hoping that maybe NEXT year will be different. I've wasted enough years doing that.
The bad thing is that fear keeps me from changing pretty much any aspect of my life. Though, that's why the pressure from this current situation is good. I'll do something if I'm pressured to.
Oh - and I found out a family member died (not one I knew) and the power went out. All three things we found out or happened within the same hour. It was sorta weird/creepy last night.
BTW, family member's shity ass company which she's been working for for years, shall not be named. They didn't even give her the reason why she was being fired. The boss just came in and told her to pack her things. Apparently they are known for this.
I talk about us and how we're feeling, I can only imagine how she's feeling now. She's already gone through a rough year.