Alright. This is going to sound majorly dumb... But I am so confused, and I need answers.
There is this boy. He shall remain nameless through this whole thing. ;)
He has been my friend ever since he and I join BoyScouts. We have always been back-to-back partners, always doing the right things, always the highest up teachers (as far as kids go) to teach the younger ones. We have always tented together.... and then there was this one night.
We had been hiking maybe 10 miles. Not much, but we were kind of worn out and a little tired, so we skipped dinner, telling everyone we were going to sleep. (This was at 9:30PM) So we went to our tent, and then got to talking.
At first it was harmless, and then it got a little exciting. After maybe 15 minutes of talking we got down to business, right there in the tent with maybe 30 other people within a half-mile radius.
After that things like that have been going on and off, sometimes one thing, sometimes another. I have once asked him to kiss me, but he refused, pulling his head away, and I could see on his face a look of slight disgust. Maybe he didn't like kissing... but then who didn't?
After maybe a week he started... changing. He would get a little more aggressive with me, a little more mean here and there. He would make jokes about me, make fun, and even when I did something harmless he would act as if it was the weirdest thing in the world. It's been two months since then, and we have only done a one-night stand. He's been acting like a total jerk, though, making me cry, and I hardly ever cry. I love him (Or as close to the real thing I can get without completely knowing) and I don't know what to do. I tried asking him if he was straight, bi, or gay... in a totally secluded area, and he automatically said straight and walked away.
He is hurting me, and I want to find out a way for him to come back to me, to make our bond put together again.
He has been going through a lot lately, though. Kidney stones, and those are rare for teenagers, and they hurt like hell. I have been trying to be a little nicer to him. If he punches me I smile and make a joke totally unrelated. When there are other people around I try and act straight so that he doesn't become embarrassed (I am kind of flamboyant), and it's irritating the crap out of me. Someone. Please help. ):