All I've managed to eat in the past 48hrs is some bread... I think I am sick... And tired
I need to stop hating myself...because that makes others unhappy
But I don't know how
This is pathetic
Are you ok Magic? Do you need a hug *Hugs*
The thing I need most is to stop behaving like a child.
don't hate yourself or abuse your body. Shit I wish were you, but I suppose people tend to take things for granted sometimes.
do you hate about yourself?
"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain
My inability to cope being around people, for the most part... especially at parties and social events.
Self hatred is a habit. A habit that gets you nowhere fast. It's hard to progress in life if you spend your time loathing yourself.
Just keep in mind that for every negative you see in yourself, there's probably, like, 10 positives. :)
It is a habit.
Something triggers a thought like, "oh, I'm so dumb" and then they all come.
I'm so ugly.
And I go back to it out of habit, because it's easier to blame myself. And it's curious, because you sort of say those things to yourself out of habit, but once they must have really meant something. I don't know if I'm saying this the right way. But the point is I'm realizing that this is my own doing.
It's a habit I'm familiar with, trust me. But like all other habits, it can be broken, with a bit of moral support from those around you and a lot of self-exploration. :P
This sounds odd but it works for me, if you keep yourself busy in something then you tend to think much less about the negative. Don't just sit in your room, listening to sad music and feeling pathetic ( which i am guilty of)
No, do just sit in your room listening to sad music and feeling pathetic. 'Give it to me in excess, so that, surfeiting, the appetite may sicken and so die.' Eventually you'll look up and see that your dark little sad-music cave is much more gloomy and pathetic than you are, then you'll laugh at yourself and cheer up. It always works for me, even (maybe especially) when I don't want it to.
What if I am as gloomy and pathetic as my cave music? ;)