I feel as if every girl I ever am attracted to is never going to want to date me because I am transgender. My first girlfriend broke up with me because I came out to her as transgender. My second girlfriend did the same thing. The one girl I was dating but not in a relationship with who happens to be my best friend that I'm head over heels for also told me she couldn't date me because of my gender identity. I feel like nobody will ever want to date me because of my gender identity. I feel so alone...like I will never find love. I wish I never knew how to love a person as more than a friend. That way it wouldn't hurt so much to be constantly rejected for being myself. Nobody will love me for me. I don't think I can date anyone for quite a long time...until I have finished my transition. Especially since I'm still a little on the fence of whether I am transgender or neither gender. I don't know who I am and I feel like I will never be loved for who I am because I am so masculine. I am not girly enough for any gay or bi girl to love me and I don't have the right body parts for any straight girl to love me. I really wish I was incapable of loving another human being in the romantic sense because I am never loved in return. I don't know how to handle this pain and I know I am slipping really quickly back into the deep depression I used to have. I just feel so alone...none of my friends can relate to this...the only one that can I can't talk about it with her because she is my best friend who I just told I am head over heels for her and she turned me down sugar coating it as best as she could. Which she knows I can't stand because then it makes me feel like they don't respect me enough to tell me how they really feel. I am not a child all I want in life is the truth and someone to love me for me. If I can't have someone to love me for me then I want to not be able to love anyone else. Life without love isn't really a life worth living in my opinion...Which is why I keep praying that the one for me that will love me for me is out there somewhere.