Argggh Fucking Hell :( (

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So I went on this holiday right with a couple of friends, one being my friend called Kevin. Kevin invited his friend Alan. Alan liked me, I liked him. 4 weeks later we were going out and he was my boyfriend.
He was wonderfull, I was introduced to the rest of Alan and Kevins friends and they were so nicee.

I talked far too much causing annoyance I suppose and I think I could have like put like bagage on him or some shit idk.
3 months later I was dumped. I feel like such a school-girl saying this but it's true, I mean i've gone through alot of shit in my life and dumpings (2 prior to this one), and this was the WORST pain I have ever felt in my life. I cried for a week and my body and my heart ached in places I never thought possible. BUT ANYWAYS.

I still continued to hang out with his group. I dont think he liked it particulary as apparently he was like "I'm sick of seeing her face at clubs".. but whatever!
So anyways 2 months later im seeing this guy called Brian. Im introuced to his friends and I introduce them to mine (Kevin, my ex and the rest of the gang.) Kevin has the hots for a friend of Brians. And I hooked up with Brian right infront of my ex felt soooo good haha, futile but felt nice. ANYWAYS.

Things didn't work out with Brian. (Man I suck at relos.) And I told Kevin I didn't really want to hang out with Brians group anymore, however Kev has this weird obsession with this girl so THEY FULL HANG OUT EVEN WITHOUT ME THERE ITS SO WEIRDDDDDDDD. Like MY group and Brians GROUP and it's weird because I mean I felt like a slut or something and it's embarrasing both guys Brian and Alan there that idk I got kinda rejected by??

Oh and I think I am still infatuated by Alan :( It's been like 3 months I need to grow a pair and move on arghhhhh, alwel soz for the whinging.
And jesus I just wish Kev would respect my wishes, nothing is even going to happen with the girl, it's just fucking annoying.
Anyways apologies for the long post my way of 'venting' i suppose and sorry for the ill grammar.