Within the past two hours, I've changed emotions faster than I thought possible. And I've alternated emotions so fast, I actually forgot what emotion I was feeling. Like, dude, I'm seriously terrified of college, and I leave for it in thirty-six hours.
I mean, sure, my college is thirty minutes away for me, but I'm not going home under any circumstance. Fuck that, I'm crazy enough as it is with my parents around all the time - I don't need to continue that for another four years.
But even still, it's college. I don't know anyone. ANYONE. I'm going from a class size of 89 to 2,000 something. That's at least 22x more people. And what if they all think I'm weird or smelly?! Or what if they find out I'm prematurely balding, although my hair loss seems to have halted?!
Or worse! What if I get drunk and embarrass myself?! Or what if I decide to get drunk and decide to smoke again, and suddenly have an asthma attack that requires emergency services? Cool. Suddenly room what-ever-the-fuck-I'm-in becomes asthma-kid room.
And speaking of my room... My roommate is UGHHHHHH! The kid is just plain weird. Not like, weird cool... But like weird... When he messaged me on good ol' Facebook, he told me he was a chubby chaser and asked about my fetishes. Just to put it out there, I don't care if you like overweight girls or guys. I really don't. I just don't need you to introduce yourself as a chubby chaser. I'm not particularly fond of "Hi, I'll be your roommate. I like fat girls. Do you have any fetishes?" Like, the fuck am I supposed to say? I umm... like guys that are really sexy. And I'm also vocal.
What's worse, he saw "Interested in Men" on Facebook and asked if it was a joke.... Like, obviously it's serious you flipping fool. Doesn't my profile picture scream, "I MOTHER FUCKING LIKE DUDES"?! (my profile picture is my icon. Rainbow flag. Legalize Gay shirt.) I mean, I told him I was gay, and he said he didn't care, but even still. Dah fuck?
Uhh... Maybe I should have opted for the University of British Columbia in Vancouver...