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Ugh, I am sick again. This is my fourth cold this year, and it's only August. Why has my immune system gone to shit this year? I don't understand. I've been so over the past few weeks too. All the time, even in the middle of the day.

Except now it's past 3:30 in the morning, and I'm not even remotely tired even though I've been up way longer than normal. Hmm. Hey, you know what? Fuck it. I'm not even gonna try to understand anymore. I am just gonna accept the fact that sometimes I am randomly a zombie.

FCG won't talk to me. I tried to a few days ago and she never responded. But it's not just me, apparently. One of our friends asked me a couple days ago if I had talked to her recently, and I said I talked to her throughout the summer but haven't really been able to reach her since school started. She said she hadn't heard from FCG in a while either. FCG was really upset last week right before she deleted her Facebook... I hope she's alright. I'm very worried about her. If she were here, I would hug her and stroke her hair the way she likes and say, "FCG, you are beautiful, and whatever hurt you can go eat a bowl of fried goat penises."

Anyway, I feel the need to share more delicious dumbfuckery courtesy of my mother. Remember how she wants to marry a guy she's known for a month? Well, she has also planned out their wedding, their life together, and their deaths. I am completely fucking serious.

I don't really remember all the details about their wedding, but she had apparently already envisioned everyone's outfits and everything. When they get married, she plans to adopt a little boy because she can't have any more kids. (So, gay couples can't adopt kids, but someone like her can...) She will probably never get a job, instead relying on this one dude to pay for everything. Also, they will apparently die together in each other's arms at the exact same time. I'm sorry but what the actual fucks? What's she gonna do, commit suicide with him? She has planned THAT far ahead for a guy she's known for a month?

Ugh, I can't even stand to look at her anymore. She disgusts me... 42 years old, not even looking for a job, and dumb enough to think she's going to marry a guy she's only seen twice. I can't even begin to fathom what goes on in her brain. Every day I feel the compulsion to get in my car and just drive away from all this bullshit. Actually, I'd love to just drop everything and leave. Go somewhere far away, forget it all, maybe even start to actually live. Impractical? Maybe. Impossible? Probably. Appealing? Hell yes.

On a lighter note, you guys know that "On This Day In 2010" thing that occasionally pops up on the Facebook sidebar? Apparently, exactly a year ago, I went out to eat with my grandparents, and the French teacher stared at me. This is hilarious to me for some reason. You know what else is hilarious to me? THIS ENTIRE FUCKING TUMBLR! Seriously, it is BEYOND glorious.

Oh, and I spent the day with my Nintendo 64 today since I felt kinda bad. Favorite game system of all time. I don't know if it's just because it was my first big console, but the oddly-shaped controller and the awkward graphics make me strangely happy. I still have the same one I've always had! It's held up very well over the past 11 (maybe 12?) years. I had to replace a cord on it about 4 years ago, but it's been perfect otherwise.

Also, fuck everybody. These guys are where it's at:


625539's picture

that tumblr omg

that tumblr omg

Super Duck's picture


I KNOW HAHAHA. I went through 20 pages last night!

loreonpravus's picture

Maybe the stress (no FCG,

Maybe the stress (no FCG, mom's dumbfuckery) is starting to screw with you physiologically? Immune-system wise. Just a thought...

High school is on a weird plane of motion isn't it? Sometimes it's super accelerated and sometimes it's slower than a slug in tar. This is irritating and frustrating because there is absolutely nothing you can do about it except wait it out. Y'know? You can't say screw this I'm moving halfway across the country because I'm sick of this place because you can't, for so many reasons. So we bide our time with tumblrs and internet.

Super Duck's picture

Maybe. I was sick a lot back

Maybe. I was sick a lot back at the very beginning of 2011 too, but I've really been kind of stressed about at least something this entire year, now that I think about it.

Yeah... Freshman and sophomore years went by so fast, but I feel like I've been a junior for 10 damn years now, and it's only the 4th week of school. I dunno, I think the best way to describe how I feel is by saying that living in this town and doing things I can't stand day in and day out makes me feel like I'm a wild animal locked away in a tiny cage, you know? Sad and trapped and afraid. This makes much more sense in my head, but I'm sick so it's hard to sound intelligent.

hellonwheels's picture

banjo kazzoie were the shit!!!

and i know i totally spelled that wrong. that sucks about sorry.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Super Duck's picture

Hell yeah they were! And

Hell yeah they were!

And yeah... It does :(

rythmn_n_rhyme_grrl's picture

Totally unrelated to what

Totally unrelated to what you wrote but did Irene fuck anything up where you live? I know some of my friends that live back east were out of power for a while.
I'm sorry about FCG...I think you said that she wasn't answering text messages but have you tried calling her?

Super Duck's picture

No, I do not live directly

No, I do not live directly on the East Coast. I'm further inland.

I haven't, but none of our friends have been able to reach her... So I really don't think it would do any good.