So it's the first week of school at my university, and there are a a bunch of activities every day to go to. I noticed there was a movie being played in one of the buildings and it was run by the gay club at my school. i really wanted to go and watch it and be a part of it...you know, meet some people who are bi like me or gay etc. So i left my residence and walked all the way there..but when i got to the front door i couldn't do it. I walked away and then tried again but something was pulling me back and i'm so frustrated with myself because i really wanted to do it.
I'm hoping i can go to another activity run by them another day. I'm still not too sure what's holding me back? I guess it might be the fact i'm not ready for everyone to know i'm bi? but i really don't know..
oh and to make things worse, as i was walking back to my room, i saw the girl that liked me and i liked..but then she told me she just wanted to be friends like over a month ago.
lets just say it was...awkward.