(i want someone to fuck me and i want them to want it. i'm sick of not feeling wanted, my boyfriend has no libido and i have been so fucking horny lately.
i've been fantasizing about my cinema teacher. he's older and not attractive in any way except that he's passionate about his work and he's eloquent. he's very sort-of "sexy ugly". he wears round glasses and i like them. he's into film noir and horror films which is also attractive to me. i feel like trying to seduce him.
and i don't know what that says about me. am i so insecure that i need sex that much to feel confident about myself? or has my relationship just gone downhill that much? or am i just keeping a whore locked inside of me?)