Dude, in the school play this year, some guy gets to kiss the TWO hottest senior girls. Yes. Not one, but BOTH OF THEM. That is not even close to fair! BOTH OF THEM! THEY ARE SO HOT! Like... OH MY GOD! One's a stellar blonde cheerleader, and the other is one of IG's super hot friends who is actually not stellar blonde, for a change.
In other news, my car keeps blowing some fuse... It's in the shop now, and they say it keeps doing that. I'm nervous that they won't be able to fix it. I live so far away from civilization (20 minutes from town, and about 30 from school.) that I really need to have it back. Without it, my grandma must make special trips into town to pick me up from school, and that uses massive gas. That's like an hour in the car every day, and it's a special trip. We can't really afford to get another one, and I really hope it doesn't come to that because I love this car. :'( It's my precious, shiny blue car-baby. And also, I feel stupidly helpless without it. I can't even go to the store when I need to. And I feel so bad for making my grandma make special trips to town every day to come get me.
I have a new friend who's a sophomore. I think I'll just call her Sophomore. I stole her last piece of gum yesterday, and I felt soooo bad... But anyway, she's, like, stellar straight and mega obsessed with guys. (Seriously, she even says ULTRA perverted shit about them, all the freaking time and right in public.) There's another girl she's friends with that's in the class with us, and they always discuss guys. I'm just like, "Okay, cool," but I never say anything to them because Sophomore's friend is mega homophobic, and I just don't want to deal with that right now. I can't tell about Sophomore's views. When we were talking to each other and the other chick was grossed out by a magazine about gays, she was like whatever, but when the girl brought it up again later, she was all, "Oh, yeah, that's super weird!"
I dunno. It's just kind of lonely, because they LOVE talking about dudes, and it kind of reminds me how I have no one at school to talk about girls with. All of my female friends are straight, and all of my male friends moved... Sometimes I wish I could be like them, because it would be easier, but I can't help the fact that girls are just naturally hotter than dudes!
Also, today, I discovered that Sophomore LOVES HAIR. WHAT IS THIS?! Seriously, she touched that other girl's hair for 10 minutes today and kept brushing her own over and over. You know, there are quite a few bizarre things I've noticed. She's really tall. I think she might even be a little taller than FCG, but I can't compare them side-by-side so I'm not sure. She has blonde hair, but it's not naturally blonde like FCG's, so I'm not going to count that. She's about a year and a half younger than me, while FCG is about a year and a half older than me. (Although now I'm slightly confused as to why FCG was 2 grades ahead of me while Sophomore is 1 grade behind me because it's the same age difference.) Mind is blown.
While on the subject of girls who have weird similarities to FCG, Helpful Senior doesn't think Mini FCG looks like FCG, but she does! I swear it! That's why she's called Mini FCG! We had to interact with Mini FCG on Tuesday. She's 13, which is older than I thought she was. I'm really bad at estimating ages. I think she's the oldest of them, then... I still haven't learned any of those kids' names. Hahaha. I think she's just going to be "Mini FCG" in my mind, Well, wait, I learned the one who has the same name as IG, but none of the other ones. Maybe I'll just give all of them nicknames.
I was gonna talk to regular FCG tonight, but I'm too anxious, and on Facebook, she's all excited about going somewhere tonight anyway... I hate myself so much right now. I am a massive loser. It's not even FCG herself. I mean, yeah, I miss her so much, but it's the fact that I'm having trouble doing something so simple. It's like, what does that say about me? That I am a giant fucking loser, that's what. I thought I was beyond this magnitude of loserdom, but I guess not. I just wish I could be normal about this.
I don't even know what to say to her... Should I just straight-up tell her I miss her? Or would that be weird? Sigh, why am I so socially retarded? Hmm, maybe because I never had more than 2 friends at a time until I was like 14-15.
Anyway, some of my friends are being fuckfaces to me. You see, I'm abysmal at science and average at math. I also hate both subjects. My brain is just NOT wired that way. On the other hand, I'm alright at history (but am not all that fond of it) and good at English, the only subject I even like. According to a few of my friends, I'm stupid and will end up being a broke-ass English teacher at some crappy high school.
They worded it a little less dickishly, but the sentiment was still there. I'm sorry, but not everyone can be a damn engineer or doctor or what have you. So maybe I won't be rolling in money. (Unless I meet a hot rich girl... ;P) So fucking what? I mean, I don't particularly want to be an English teacher, but I'd still rather be a "broke-ass English teacher at some crappy high school" than something I totally hate and suck at.