University <3

Nanook's picture

College is wonderful. Actually, it's beyond wonderful - it's already one of the best experiences of my life. It's a place where you can reinvent yourself and make yourself into whoever you want to be. You don't have to carry around the baggage of your past eighteen years, and you don't have to tell anyone anything that you don't want to.

And what's more, no one really cares. You can be gay, you can be straight, you can be a stoner, you can get drunk, or you can be straightedge. No one cares, because if they do care, they just find other friends they fit in with! Isn't that beautiful!? Instead of dealing with other people's bullshit, you can just say "fuck you, I'm tired of you. Buh-bye". It's fantastic! Or even more, you can just grow apart. Wonderful and clean.

What's even more awesome about college, this is my third day of classes in twelve days. And since classes officially started, I've only had three days of classes in nine days! Sooooo wonderful, but it's about to change into, two days of labs, three days of classes and a weekend. Blehhh.

In other news, I met a really cute boy, named Logan. He's super fucking tall, like seven inches taller than me or me. And I'm average - I'm 5'9". He's smooth, naturally (so jealous), has straight hair that's styled well and has straight teeth. Gum are a little not so perfect, but whatever. I can deal. He does enjoy smoking more than drinking, but whatever. I can deal with that. Although he did smoke a cigarette around me... YUCK! I don't care if other people smoke, but I'm not gonna kiss a smoker. Ever. It tastes like ash tray. Plus, second hand smoke also gave me asthma and gave my grandparents lung cancer sooooooo.

My only problem though, is the fact that I've forgotten how to date. Like, everything's phasing me right now. I'm not sure how things are supposed to feel like, and what's too much, what's too little and when it's too soon. Quotes keep popping up in my head from Pride and Prejudice. It's crazy.

Well, time for biology! Maybe I'll write something soon, if I have a chance!


jeff's picture


What you're calling dating sounds more like the games people play regarding dating...

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

Nanook's picture

But isn't dating sort of a

But isn't dating sort of a game starting out? I mean, sure admitting the fact that you like someone is all well and good, but feelings change. And it's not a terrible thing to be reserved. That's my problem - how much reservation is too much reservation.

But whatever. I think I'm gonna ask him out on a date this weekend. Then I'll just have to get date money from my parents... Haha. Sounds kind of lame. Definitely not telling him that.

jeff's picture


The dating part is just dating. It is the scaffolding people erect (NPI) around dating that is the game. Wait three days before you call back. Don't act like you're interested. Say something slightly negative about them to knock them off their game a bit and give you the upper hand. All that nonsense isn't really dating.

That kind of stuff isn't dating, that is an optional and unnecessary ecosystem that can be put around dating.

Well, you can choose to date people (plural). Like, reject the silly notion that seems to be in fashion now that you are either single or in a monogamous committed relationship with a "boyfriend" with no steps in between. Go out with him... see what happens. Go out with someone else if an opportunity occurs. And if it gets serious and you two are clicking, it will evolve into more time together and exclusivity, etc., etc.

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

Nanook's picture

No, I don't mean all that

No, I don't mean all that useless fucking crap. I'm too lazy to particularly care to make him feel like I don't like him. And besides, that's manipulative.

What I care about is how I look. I don't want to make it seem like I'm desperate or needy. But I don't want to look disinterested. And I don't want to be the one to initiate everything. Reciprocity and taking things slowly is good. I've just forgotten how to wait.

elph's picture

I like...

...the way you're thinking!

Previous comments (suggestions?) were headache-inducing!

loreonpravus's picture

It's a brand new start.

It's a brand new start. Everyone's on an even playing field here; it's nothing like high school. As for reinvention- I don't want to be someone I'm not, so for me it's just finally talking the chance to be myself and not hide anything away.

A good point of reference for dating is to remember all the things you did that were morbidly embarrassing and try not to do any of those things.