(if there are men in heaven you will find war there)
i have an addiction problem, i just wanted to admit it somewhere
reality is repulsive
my actions are repulsive
i am a liar of the worst kind because i believe the tales i tell
i get caught in them and i am my own audience
but who could blame the call to be a stranger?
to forget yourself
to be a character in a different story..?
to deny yourself is to deny responsibility
to deny yourself is to deny your ghosts
to deny yourself is to reclaim innocence
i so hate being alone and sober
i need to be reminded i exist, or forget it entirely
otherwise i cannot bear being uncertain
sometimes i want to go somewhere and hide
until everyone has forgotten
Meanwhile _____ is my Berlin
where I know nothing but I know I could find peace
where no one can find me
But it's just a dream waiting.