I'm Not Entirely Sure What to Write About.

cheese's picture

Nothing exciting has happened today. Just school.
It's really cold out today. And i cant find any of my jackets or sweaters :(.

So S got mad at me today because I'm still talking to E. Hah. Mad doesnt even describe it. She was a bitch towards me. Don't ge me wrong she's a great friend, but sometimes she can be such a bitch. Like, it annoys the fuck out of me. I can't stand it sometimes. And lately it's been over E. I hate that S talks shit in front of me about E. I'm protective over her. And i dont fucking appreciate my best friend being a dick to me because of the choices i make regarding E.
Too bad i dont have the balls to tell S that. I know she wouldnt feel sorry or bad. She'd brush it off and come up with some lame ass excuse for her being a bitch towards E. Sometimes she wont even try. Like, she'll just say " well maybe she shouldnt be so stupid" :| And i get pissed. Because E hasnt done anything to deserve being talked to/about like that. I never lash out at S. Because i know she has her own problems and it's behind her lashing out like that. Just the way she was raised. I do get mad. And i try to show her that I'm not okay with what she's saying, but she just brushes it off. I told her she was immature the other day. She refused to believe me. And of course i dropped it cause i didnt want to be mean or start anything. But she is. The things she says, the way she reacts to certain situations.
I love her, but i hate her sometimes. I hate that she encourages me to go out with someone, but then a couple weeks after i get with the girl S wont like her and will just be mean and insensitive. S isnt the only one problems. E has them too. In fact, everyone has their own personal problems. And that's what is usually behind the way they act.
S is very insecure. I can feel it. And she's told me. i try to make her feel better, but sometimes she makes me not want to try any more.




lonewolf678's picture


the part of your journal that's exciting to me is the cold weather you are experiencing. I'd love to have cooler weather here in the T-to-the-exas.

cheese's picture


Ive been waiting for the cool weather all summer :) It feels really nice, something different you know?
Texas? My uncle lives in Texas lol. :) I myself reside in So Cal :3

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson

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A Metallica AND grunge fan...YESSSSSSS!!!!! Welcome, and most important of all...keep writing!

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cheese's picture


I havent been on much over the last year lol. Ive been here quite awhile just kinda keeping to myself. :)
Ive actually been here since 2008 :o (this is a different account. My other one is in_rainbows.)

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson

Perhaps We Should Leave's picture

I don't know you, so welcome to Oasis.

As I said, welcome.

The problem you're having with S is a common one. Sometimes the best thing to do is just ignore how stupid she's being- or find a way to *make* her realise how stupid she's being. How you wish to handle it is your decision.

And enjoy the cold weather.

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"Reality is a story the mind tells itself. An artificial structure conjured into being by the calcium ion exchange of a million synaptic firings. A truth so strange it can only be lied into existence. And our mind can lie. Never doubt it..."

cheese's picture

My Other account

is in_rainbows :)
Yeah. I usually do a great job of ignoring it. Sometimes it just bugs me more than it usually does. Idk if i can make her realize, since she'd take it personally and im not a very assertive person as it is.
oh well.
Thanks for the advice tophat :)

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson