I'm Not Entirely Sure What to Write About.

cheese's picture

Nothing exciting has happened today. Just school.
It's really cold out today. And i cant find any of my jackets or sweaters :(.

So S got mad at me today because I'm still talking to E. Hah. Mad doesnt even describe it. She was a bitch towards me. Don't ge me wrong she's a great friend, but sometimes she can be such a bitch. Like, it annoys the fuck out of me. I can't stand it sometimes. And lately it's been over E. I hate that S talks shit in front of me about E. I'm protective over her. And i dont fucking appreciate my best friend being a dick to me because of the choices i make regarding E.
Too bad i dont have the balls to tell S that. I know she wouldnt feel sorry or bad. She'd brush it off and come up with some lame ass excuse for her being a bitch towards E. Sometimes she wont even try. Like, she'll just say " well maybe she shouldnt be so stupid" :| And i get pissed. Because E hasnt done anything to deserve being talked to/about like that. I never lash out at S. Because i know she has her own problems and it's behind her lashing out like that. Just the way she was raised. I do get mad. And i try to show her that I'm not okay with what she's saying, but she just brushes it off. I told her she was immature the other day. She refused to believe me. And of course i dropped it cause i didnt want to be mean or start anything. But she is. The things she says, the way she reacts to certain situations.
I love her, but i hate her sometimes. I hate that she encourages me to go out with someone, but then a couple weeks after i get with the girl S wont like her and will just be mean and insensitive. S isnt the only one problems. E has them too. In fact, everyone has their own personal problems. And that's what is usually behind the way they act.
S is very insecure. I can feel it. And she's told me. i try to make her feel better, but sometimes she makes me not want to try any more.

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meh.

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lonewolf678's picture

Hmm,

the part of your journal that's exciting to me is the cold weather you are experiencing. I'd love to have cooler weather here in the T-to-the-exas.

cheese's picture

Yeah

Ive been waiting for the cool weather all summer :) It feels really nice, something different you know?
Texas? My uncle lives in Texas lol. :) I myself reside in So Cal :3

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson

GenerationsGapped's picture

A Metallica AND grunge

A Metallica AND grunge fan...YESSSSSSS!!!!! Welcome, and most important of all...keep writing!

C.J. is a 21 year old chubby heavy metal fanatic living Green in the South. Believe it or not he's really gay!

cheese's picture

Haha

I havent been on much over the last year lol. Ive been here quite awhile just kinda keeping to myself. :)
Ive actually been here since 2008 :o (this is a different account. My other one is in_rainbows.)

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson

Perhaps We Should Leave's picture

I don't know you, so welcome to Oasis.

As I said, welcome.

The problem you're having with S is a common one. Sometimes the best thing to do is just ignore how stupid she's being- or find a way to *make* her realise how stupid she's being. How you wish to handle it is your decision.

And enjoy the cold weather.

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"Reality is a story the mind tells itself. An artificial structure conjured into being by the calcium ion exchange of a million synaptic firings. A truth so strange it can only be lied into existence. And our mind can lie. Never doubt it..."

cheese's picture

My Other account

is in_rainbows :)
Yeah. I usually do a great job of ignoring it. Sometimes it just bugs me more than it usually does. Idk if i can make her realize, since she'd take it personally and im not a very assertive person as it is.
oh well.
Thanks for the advice tophat :)

"i remember when you and me, how we used to be such good friends. wouldnt give me none, when all i wanted was some..."-jack johnson