Nothing exciting has happened today. Just school.
It's really cold out today. And i cant find any of my jackets or sweaters :(.
So S got mad at me today because I'm still talking to E. Hah. Mad doesnt even describe it. She was a bitch towards me. Don't ge me wrong she's a great friend, but sometimes she can be such a bitch. Like, it annoys the fuck out of me. I can't stand it sometimes. And lately it's been over E. I hate that S talks shit in front of me about E. I'm protective over her. And i dont fucking appreciate my best friend being a dick to me because of the choices i make regarding E.
Too bad i dont have the balls to tell S that. I know she wouldnt feel sorry or bad. She'd brush it off and come up with some lame ass excuse for her being a bitch towards E. Sometimes she wont even try. Like, she'll just say " well maybe she shouldnt be so stupid" :| And i get pissed. Because E hasnt done anything to deserve being talked to/about like that. I never lash out at S. Because i know she has her own problems and it's behind her lashing out like that. Just the way she was raised. I do get mad. And i try to show her that I'm not okay with what she's saying, but she just brushes it off. I told her she was immature the other day. She refused to believe me. And of course i dropped it cause i didnt want to be mean or start anything. But she is. The things she says, the way she reacts to certain situations.
I love her, but i hate her sometimes. I hate that she encourages me to go out with someone, but then a couple weeks after i get with the girl S wont like her and will just be mean and insensitive. S isnt the only one problems. E has them too. In fact, everyone has their own personal problems. And that's what is usually behind the way they act.
S is very insecure. I can feel it. And she's told me. i try to make her feel better, but sometimes she makes me not want to try any more.