Today...

cheese's picture

was okay. Had a wake n' bake. Then i had to take a xanax in 2nd per. so i could give my presentation in 3rd. I was pretty messed up :| lol. I had a lot of work that was due today that i kinda forgot about .-. but that's my fault.
I really want to go to the Queen Mary on friday. But idk if im going to have the money for it :(. I dont think im doing anything for halloween this year and it gives me a sad. i always do something :(. I dont even have a legit costume :(.
I cant wait for the next dance. :3
im definitely going to go. Ive only been to one school dance my entire school "career". And it was pretty much a forced dance xD.
I think the next one is Winter Formal. :o. I need to find a date. Im starting now cause i dont want to be left without one XD. Although, a lot of things can change in a month and a half. Maybe two. Whenever friggin Winter Formal is. :P. My point is, things can change quickly.
The only thing is, i dont know many people. And i HATE asking people out. it's the most nerve wracking EVER.
I think im a little more afraid of it now because of what happened with (lets call her Berlin LOL) Berlin. I went to her house on the last day of school. We hung out, and i had been wanting to ask her out for a while. So i gave off obvious hints. Flirted. And before i even asked, she said no. I got shot down BEFORE i even asked :I. That was a pretty big blow to my confidence and self esteem. I mean, damn.
I still fucked her though. LOL. ^-^;
The more time goes by, the more i realize how much of a player i kinda am. Not on purpose. It just kinda happens. And i should be confident. Because apparently, a lot of people want me. But, im not :).
Girl, after girl, after girl. XD. i feel bad. cause like i said, i dont do it on purpose. Im just really picky. and things irritate me. also, i havent slept with all the girls ive been with. out of 6, ive only slept with 2 or 3. haha
*sigh*
Anyways. i have 15 minutes to finish this essay. it's due next per. :|
Byes :)

Comments

Dracofangxxx's picture

you are a pretty big player

not much else to say
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That's redick!

cheese's picture

lol, i honestly don't think

lol, i honestly don't think i am. i'm amazed that i can even say i've had sex more than once.
i have some self esteem issues :p

Dracofangxxx's picture

player doesn't have to refer to how much sex you've had

but it seems like you're dating a new person every six seconds
and then you're like
I wanna be with one person for a long time blabla but then you find some other person or some silly reason to not be with them??

pretty playery
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That's redick!

cheese's picture

Lol

im just picky. :| and i hate that about myself.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero

radiosilence95's picture

Wish I got as much action as

Wish I got as much action as you did...

cheese's picture

honestly, i'd give up my

honestly, i'd give up my "experience" for some consistancy any day. i want to be with one person who i really care about. :p
lol

SometimesY's picture

I must say..

That I do enjoy large amounts of sex. But all with the same person. It is incredibly fulfilling.

elph's picture

Approve!

If more thought like this it would hasten the demise of sexual tourism!

Perhaps We Should Leave's picture

Hm.

I say that there's nothing wrong with a little bit of sluttiness, assuming that one is an ethical slut (look that up if you don't know to what I am referring)! Don't be ashamed of yourself- the only thing worse than shamelessness is shame.

Something's only truly wrong if you think it's wrong and still do it. So choose what you believe and act accordingly! :)

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When one finds oneself remembering that one is mentally ill, one often finds it best to remind oneself that oneself is not truly mad, but more likely, the world around oneself is mad and can only be dealt with with madness and wit in turn. So, in c

cheese's picture

Thanks

for clearing that up for me :)

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero