was okay. Had a wake n' bake. Then i had to take a xanax in 2nd per. so i could give my presentation in 3rd. I was pretty messed up :| lol. I had a lot of work that was due today that i kinda forgot about .-. but that's my fault.
I really want to go to the Queen Mary on friday. But idk if im going to have the money for it :(. I dont think im doing anything for halloween this year and it gives me a sad. i always do something :(. I dont even have a legit costume :(.
I cant wait for the next dance. :3
im definitely going to go. Ive only been to one school dance my entire school "career". And it was pretty much a forced dance xD.
I think the next one is Winter Formal. :o. I need to find a date. Im starting now cause i dont want to be left without one XD. Although, a lot of things can change in a month and a half. Maybe two. Whenever friggin Winter Formal is. :P. My point is, things can change quickly.
The only thing is, i dont know many people. And i HATE asking people out. it's the most nerve wracking EVER.
I think im a little more afraid of it now because of what happened with (lets call her Berlin LOL) Berlin. I went to her house on the last day of school. We hung out, and i had been wanting to ask her out for a while. So i gave off obvious hints. Flirted. And before i even asked, she said no. I got shot down BEFORE i even asked :I. That was a pretty big blow to my confidence and self esteem. I mean, damn.
I still fucked her though. LOL. ^-^;
The more time goes by, the more i realize how much of a player i kinda am. Not on purpose. It just kinda happens. And i should be confident. Because apparently, a lot of people want me. But, im not :).
Girl, after girl, after girl. XD. i feel bad. cause like i said, i dont do it on purpose. Im just really picky. and things irritate me. also, i havent slept with all the girls ive been with. out of 6, ive only slept with 2 or 3. haha
Anyways. i have 15 minutes to finish this essay. it's due next per. :|