I've decided

cheese's picture

That I'm not going to try anything with Amanda.

I'm just going to stay in the shadows and be sweet and caring towards her.

I think that's what she needs right now.

Someone who cares.

If something happens, it happens.

But, I'm not going to force it.

It seems like the best choice, honestly.

And also, I'm a pussy :D haha.

In other news, idk if i told you guys but ive changed my career path once again. Piercing Artist now. :o.
There's a three day course in Hollywood that teaches you a bunch of crap you need to know.
Its taught by professionals too, like 10+ years in the business.
The only thing that worries me though is that i need to be an apprentice for awhile. like maybe more than 6 months.
I don't know what im gonna do during that time period.
I also want to open up my own shop too. Tattoos and piercings. Maybe just piercings.
But that wont be for a long while. maybe when I'm in my late twenties.
Cant open up a place with little experience, now can we? :3
I was thinking i'd work at Starbucks until i get hired lol.
I heard that they pay well and have great benefits.
i also want to get a degree in business and maybe even econ. I might go to school for that for a little while.
Just so i dont screw something up, cause i know i will XD
So that should be fun.


Perhaps We Should Leave's picture

You won't screw anything up.

And perhaps that's a good choice for Amanda. I don't know the circumstances, but honestly that's an honorable decision.

* * *
The father now gallops, with terror half wild,
He holds in his arms the shuddering child;
He reaches his farmstead with toil and dread,—
The child in his arms lies motionless, dead.

cheese's picture

I figured it was,

But since i kinda had to explain myself to her ex the other day (which im sure Amanda found out about) me not making a move might've upset her or something. It seems as if she's been avoiding me. Actually, is avoiding me. By not talking to me. Which is awkward.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero