So im not even supposed to be online

cheese's picture

But my stupid curiosity and crush-ing has gotten the best of me.

i find it better if i go on with my life and like new people.

right now its this girl. she is sitting a few feet away from me.

Im not sure if im crush-ing or if im just taken in by her beauty.

she knows i like her (thanks to Suzanne haha)

and actually, she had already had a hunch that i did.

am i really that obvious? fml.

oh well. Suzanne suggested to her that she should date me.

:I

not gonna lie, that'd be pretty amazing. i dont know what i'd do if she did.

idk.

she just broke up with her gf like a few months ago.

and apparently she isnt over her.

and im a little weary over that fact.

this is where i say "well, i really dont mind being a rebound. she's gorgeous and just being able to say she's mine would make me incredibly happy and cocky. hah. kissing her too. fuck it."

am i looking for someone that i can have a long term relationship with? not right now, pfft i dont even know if im in love with christina.

i wouldnt mind a short term relationship.

maybe i'll make a move.

maybe....

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Dracofangxxx's picture

I'm not sure why you'd make a move

You know it'll end. Don't do it if you want something short term cause all you're gonna do is hurt the poor girl even more.

Jeebus. You've been getting nonstop action for a long time. Maybe you need a break.
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That's redick!

cheese's picture

Well,

ive realized that my intentions sound more asshole-ish when i write them haha.
i didnt mean short term on purpose, i meant im not looking for long term but if that's what happens then what can i do? lol. sorry ^-^;
she's already hurting, which is also why im not sure it'll last.

and i actually havent really been getting any, i'm led to believe i am and then something goes wrong. it really sucks cause i sound too asshole-ish here, but im really not an asshole in person. as long as im not pissed off. im too nice to hurt someone on purpose. it usually happens on accident.
i havent really talked to anyone and had intentions of it going any further than friends. so technically i am kinda taking a break. haha.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero

cheese's picture

im also quite aware that i

im also quite aware that i dont make any sense half the time.

sorry for that too.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero