a man invited me to have coffee with him
he looks nice
he's in his forties, i think
and i think we're going on thursday
it's dumb really and i always seem to go towards older guys when i feel a need for gratification
and i like being with people who don't know me at all because
i can be everything or anything
i don't have to represent anything
and i have no expectations.
it's just nice.
i don't want to sleep with him or anything
you either have to be good looking or really intelligent for me to want that from you
and i haven't seen any of those yet so..
but it's hard for me at the same time because wounds are still fresh so
i don't know
we'll see when we get there.
it's like i'm constantly falling from a skyscraper
so far so good as each floor passes
but what counts isn't the fall,
it's the landing