So i haven't posted anything in a while and a lot has changed for me. But i'm not sure, if i'd say its changed for the better.
I had started University in September, and although i had high hopes of making a lot of great friends, coming out and letting people know i may be bi or even gay, nothing happened.
In fact, i just became overly anxious and depressed, and it had gotten to the point where i barely left my room to even eat food. I knew i had to come home, and at first i was humiliated and frustrated that i was even considering dropping out. But it had to be done..and now i'm back at home.
The problem is, i'm still just as depressed as i was, if not even more. I feel like i'm completely alone with how i feel and like no one really understands me. To top it off, my friends haven't been the greatest because all they do is stress about their own problems..and over the years i've become everyone's 'stable person' and helping everyone else except myself. But now, i need to be surrounded with people that want to hear about me and my problems and that genuinely want me to get better. I'm sick of feeling invisible and like i'm on the shadow of my friends lives instead of living my own.
Most importantly, i feel stuck in a rut because i know i need and want change in my life..i just don't know how to go about doing it. I need to make new friends that are how i want to be..fun, warm, and preferably bi or gay.
I just have no idea where or how to get there. Some advice would be greatly appreciated.