Ever had a song that just describes how you feel even though you know it's just a stupid fucking song?
Mine right now is the one that got away.
Now please excuse me while I proceed and quote meaningless lyrics from a pop song.
In another life, I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away, the one that got away
But I didn't make him stay even though he was going to, for me. I made him take the scholarship, by doing the right thing. I told him I will never forget him even if we were not together. So here I am, I haven't forgotten about him, even though I have slowly, and I'm scared. How could such strong emotions just slowly fade away.
I don't like him In that way anymore, but I'm just reminiscing, trying to cling onto my ability to love before I descend down into that path of selfish hedonism again.
Josh texted me today. I want to post the texts, but because journals aren't protected by search I'm not going to. I think he's just being nice. Oh wait, I forgot... He has a boyfriend! What am I thinking. Even if something were to happen I would never go for someone taken.
He is cute though.