Well, first, CAG, you know, Cute Asian Guy, came to sit next to me in the lunch room. The exact circumstances are hard to explain, you kinda need to be me, but this kid who has no particular reason for even knowing me, intentionally searched me out during lunch, to sit next to me.
I would write down all the evidence I have for suspecting he's gay, but there's a lot and I've said it before. This is just the most obvious.
I don't think there can be hardly any doubt now, he's almost certainly interested.
Well, I'm not really too worried about that till after break, this would be a horrible time.
But yeah, pretty excited about that...
Anyway, quickly, all I really wanted to speak about was homophobia and how it becomes more and more abhorrent to me.
I really don't know why people are homophobic, it makes less and less sense to me as time goes on.
For example, I don't smoke. And I think people who smoke are kinda stupid, frankly, it's really just disgusting. And it's slightly annoying to pass people in the street huffing out this disgusting smoke.
But who the fuck am I to tell them they can't do that?
If they want to do it, they're happy, why the fuck can I tell them they can't do what they want? Even though I'd likely avoid them, they're really gross.
It's just, the prospect of telling other people what they can and can't do in their own personal lives because of the ideas you have for how a person should live, has been making less and less sense to me for some time. Now I really don't understand how people can just do that, just to think of like homophobia really pisses me off now.
People debate about whether it's a choice, and well, fuck them, of course it isn't, but even if it was, what the fuck would that matter? It doesn't fucking affect you, does it?
And it's offensive to God, so you need to stop it? I've really never understood that either, it seems like, to me, God's a big boy, I think he can handle his own enemies. The hubris required to somehow know what the guy you proclaim to be all-knowing, all-powerful master of the universe, and then to enforce based on that, is just beyond me.
Why can't you just content yourself that all the dirty faggots will burn in the next life? Why do you need to fight God's battles for him? He's fucking GOD.
Or people who don't like porn. I mean, smokers, gays, even that makes a little more sense than porn, because you could be unhappy seeing 2 guys holding hands or 2 chicks kissing or seeing someone smoking and having to hold your breath going past, but why porn?
Why does it somehow bother you that even though the only way to find porn is to search it out, and therefore you'll never come into contact with it accidentally, why does just the thought that there's other people out there in their own houses doing things you disagree with but that don't affect you?
I really just don't understand.
I mostly mention this because one of my best friends is really a bigot. I don't want to tell him I'm gay, and I wear a scarf at school, and he keeps telling me to take it off and trying to steal it and calling me a faggot, and it's like SERIOUSLY DUDE WHY THE FUCKING MOTHERFUCKER DOES IT FUCKING MATTER TO YOU.
And a few other guys doing that too.