I'm just a Holland. Looking for my Cece.

radiosilence95's picture

The above title was an allusion to Keeping You A Secret, a wonderful book that I just finished. It's an adorable lesbian romance novel, very sweet and sappy. I recommend this to my fellow lesbians and homophobes everywhere. Holland's mom really pissed me off. I hope my mom won't react to my coming out like that. I wish I hadn't finished the book so quickly, but I just couldn't stop reading. Is it pathetic that I'm jealous of fictional characters and their awesomely adorable relationship? I'm thinking yes. I was jealous of what Holland and Cece had from chapter one! Ugh. I kinda wanna read the book again, it was so damn good. There needs to be more lesbian fiction out there, and NOT just pointless erotic novels.

I can get Brittany's number, if I wanted to. All my best friend has to do is text a friend of hers who has it and it's aaaalll mine. But that seems wrong to me. And even if I got it, I wouldn't have the courage to just randomly text her, because I didn't ask her personally and it just seems rude. So I guess this option would be a last resort, like if Brittany left and I still hadn't gotten her number I MIGHT consider it. Ugh. I miss her a lot. She just makes my day. As I was reading Keeping You A Secret, I kinda imagined her and I in place of Holland and Cece. Ha! I'm pathetic.

I wanna go back to school. Christmas break is boring as hell and I miss the routine and I miss having schoolwork to focus my energy on. My throat is swollen and scratchy and my nose is all stuffed up. Yup, the girl who never gets sick has a cold. And it sucks. I can barely taste anything and my voice is weak. Damn it all to hell.

Also, my laptop refuses to turn on, so I'm typing this from my mother's laptop. I have to remember to clear her search history or else she'll find this website. So now I have to run my laptop to Wal Mart and have it fixed, hopefuly. It's a Toshiba. Anybody else have any problems with Toshibas? I'm beginning to think it's not the best brand in the world.


stillgotlegs's picture

You should get her number,

You should get her number, and when she asks say that she was really really drunk when she gave it to you.

radiosilence95's picture

XD Yeah right. I once asked

XD Yeah right. I once asked her if she's ever drank at all, and she said she doesn't drink! That's just how innocent she is.

Super Duck's picture

I have had a terrible

I have had a terrible experience with Toshiba. My laptop was a Toshiba, and I had problems with it from the beginning, then a few years later it finally just crashed and refused to turn back on. They could not fix it, either. My dad's old laptop he gave me after that is also a Toshiba, and it doesn't have too many problems but it is slow.

I read that book about three years ago. It was pretty cute.

radiosilence95's picture

Great. Knowing my luck, they

Great. Knowing my luck, they won't be able to fix my laptop and I'll have to buy another one. Fortunately I have an extended warranty on that piece of crap.