First, I don't think Brad likes me. He acts too normal around me. It just doesn't seem like it. I think about him all the time.
That isn't why I'm sad, though. I'm sad because I feel like I'm still in the closet about being gay. Plenty of people know, but I am never alone with anyone so we can't mention it. I haven't even said the word "gay" in a very long time (as I came out to people on the internet because, again, I'm never alone with anyone). I can't go to the GSA at my school, either, because my family would want to know why I didn't take the bus home and I always go to the bus with my sister. I can't be completely out because my sister goes to my school.
Also, I still think it's strange that people my age lose their virginity. I have never wanted to have sex. Although I have been attracted to people and the idea of sex many times, I have never actually wanted sex. It seems like I'm too young. I might never want to have sex.
This is a bad concluding sentence.