First, our good friend Wikipedia:
A theory that homophobia is a result of latent homosexuality was put forth in the late 20th century. A 1996 study conducted at the University of Georgia by Henry Adams, Lester Wright Jr., and Bethany Lohr indicates that a number of homophobic males exhibit latent homosexuality. The research was done on 64 heterosexual men who admitted negative affect toward homosexual individuals. They were assigned to groups on the basis of their scores on the Index of Homophobia (W. W. Hudson & W. A. Ricketts, 1980). The groups did not differ in aggression.
Participants, 35 of whom exhibited homophobic traits and 29 who did not. Three tests were conducted using penile plethysmography. While there was no difference in response when the men were exposed to heterosexual and lesbian pornography, there was a major difference in response when the men were exposed to male homosexual pornography.
The researchers reported that 24% of the non-homophobic men showed some degree of tumescence in response to the male homosexual video, compared to 54% of the subjects who scored high on the homophobia scale. In addition, 66% of the non-homophobic group showed no significant increases in tumescence after this video, but only 20% of the homophobic men failed to display any arousal. Additionally, when the participants rated their degree of sexual arousal later, the homophobic men significantly underestimated their degree of arousal by the male homosexual video.
The results of this study indicate that individuals who score in the homophobic range and admit negative affect toward homosexuality demonstrate significant sexual arousal to male homosexual erotic stimuli.
A possible explanation is found in various psychoanalytic theories, which have generally explained homophobia as a threat to an individual's own homosexual impulses causing repression, denial, or reaction formation (or all three; West, 1977). Generally, these varied explanations conceive of homophobia as one type of latent homosexuality where persons either are unaware of or deny their homosexual urges.
Another explanation of these data is found in Barlow, Sakheim, and Beck's (1983) theory of the role of anxiety and attention in sexual responding. It is possible that viewing homosexual stimuli causes negative emotions such as anxiety in homophobic men but not in nonhomophobic men. Because anxiety has been shown to enhance arousal and erection, this theory would predict increases in erection in homophobic men.
Reparative therapy advocates disagree that the homophobic males were stimulated by genuine latent homosexuality, claiming that the stimulation arose from negative emotions such as anxiety.
I thought that was delicious, so I found the original study, which can be found here: http://www.landman-psychology.com/Homophobia%20Associated%20with%20Homos...
Hehe, I love how the study has these little graphs of penis engorgement when watching straight, lesbian, or gay porn, and it's all like see, look how the homophobic guys appear significantly more turned on by gay porn than non-homophobic guys!. I LOL'd so hard about that.
That's almost as funny as when I looked up fucker in the dictionary in English today, and the definition was One that fucks I was just like TROLLOLLOLLOLLOLL, they're so scholarly about it.
I mean, c'mon, I'm sure they'd like to think they're totally unbiased observers, but c'mon, you can only be really scholarly when talking about the parts of speech of fuck with a real effort, I mean, c'mon, you can't ignore it.
So again, me being pathetic, I was excited when on Sunday for the first time CAG finally texted me back, but only for like 2 texts, then he was gone again. Sad day...
And me being pathetic again, I was happy when he posted on my FB wall, in response to that Korean swearing video Shelbs posted not too long ago, and he was all like I think that guy might be American born, I think I can hear an accent, and of course that also explains why he's so stupid hahaha and I was just like, yeah, there's something here.
ENGAGE PATHETIC ANALYTICAL MODE:
I mean, c'mon he's a guy that sits most of the way across the room from me in English, I've never had any classes with him before, I didn't even have any reason to know him before recently, and well, first, he approached me for an awkward conversation in the lunchroom about nothing in particular.
Then, before I FB friended him, he seems aware of my every FB photo, quoting a buncha my weird memes that I have for pictures most of the time.
And this from a kid that hardly ever uses FB (him, not me) (technically, if you were a cock, would that be he, not I?)
And so then I FB friended him.
And there was that one day that he put his hand on my shoulder and said Chad, you're looking handsome today and I was all like *GASM*
And he didn't seem at all weirded out when I got his phone number and texted him, someone I had no business texting.
And then he, again who never uses FB, did a post on my FB wall...
And maybe it's just me, probably it's just me, but it feels awkward when we talk, I dunno...
Now, I really have a feeling that I must be overreacting, cause of course I'm biased as all fuck, (who wouldn't want some Cute Asian Guy to like them?) but I have a feeling that I couldn't compile a list like that to make a case, for most other people, that there's something going on...
But whatever, I guess :P
Oh, another point of interest, I got one of the worst headaches of my life today.
Anyway, g'night guys :P