1930

socialist's picture

I felt like writing something. Usual topics: Brad and music.
Well, I feel like something with Brad is imminent. I don't know why, but I just have a feeling that something is going to happen very soon; within a month. I helped him find a book today as a source for an assignment. I felt very good and slightly nervous around him; it was hard to not smile. After this, I got a great view of him a few tables over while I was working with classmates in the library.
I got a mini MPK in the mail that I orderd on FSMas with a giftcard. I love being able to control the sounds that I'm making from actual equipment; it's so much easier to produce something. I'm working on a sad and happy song, expressing my bipolar emotions when I start thinking about the subject of the previous paragraph.
I'm listening to one of the best albums I have: 1930 by Merzbow
I LOVE IT OH MY GOD! I CAN BARELY THINK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE WHEN I'M LISTENING TO THIS!
Y'all should check it out. Here's a good song from it:

Comments

HELEN-_-'s picture

lol, nice

omg my speakers were on high when i clicked on the first one. THAT SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!!!!
-Helen was here :P love u :)
love is my only drug <3

Doctor Beastly's picture

Glad to read you are happy.

Glad to read you are happy. Hope it becomes easier to smile. If laughter and a smile help prolong life, it can be hard to make it through this struggle.

Yamamoto's picture

Why haven't you made a move

Why haven't you made a move yet man?... I thought that in that other journal you said that you where inspried to make a move?... I mean seriously it is not that hard, and I am telling you that you will feel better if you do... I mean what if tommorw he dies, or he moves away and then you would have never gotten a chance to have known... I mean you would be filled with regert... :( I don't want that to happen to you so you should really talk to him about it socialist... :(

socialist's picture

I can't

There are always tons of people around.

Yamamoto's picture

Why don't you ask him to

Why don't you ask him to talk with you priviatly... I mean you can get him in priviate if you really want him in privite. Just tell him that you need to talk to him about somthing and say you would like to do so in priviate. I mean he sounds like a nice guy so I am sure he won't mind doing so socialist... if he is as nice as you say then there is nothing to be worried about. :) I am telling you that things will turn out well... the only thing holding you back... is you :D

HELEN-_-'s picture

i agree with both of u. take

i agree with both of u. take s chance socialist but if it doesn't worm out oh well. but if he does make s move and he rejects then the dream is gone
-Helen was here :P love u :)
love is my only drug <3

Doctor Beastly's picture

"You can't hurry love"

Sounds like you need some advice from the Supremes. Diana Ross may be able to help pass the time.