5 Years

Super Duck's picture

I can't believe it has been 5 years since I first told someone I'm gay. 5 years is half a decade... That blows my mind. It was 5 years ago tonight, and I really have no idea how I remember that. But yeah, I was only 12. I figured it out really young. 5 years ago, I told my dad I was gay, and in retrospect, I really don't think he believed it. Why the hell should he, though, right? It's not like anyone else does, not even now. You know how many people believe me offline? Three. My mom, one friend, and this total bitch I went to middle school with. I bet you I could hit on a girl all freakin' day and not even have her notice. Ughhh.

It's exhausting sometimes. Okay, so, like, IG has this HOT friend that sits with us at lunch. She is a senior and, like I said, really hot. Anyway, yeah, so today she mentioned how much it frustrates her that her boyfriend is homophobic, and we started discussing it, and IG said she liked gay guys but is a little weirded out by lesbians "but wouldn't say it to one's face and can get used to them." And it's like... Come on, chick. You are supposed to be one of my best friends. What are you doing? Before we were friends, you were constantly on my case about being a lesbian, and now that we ARE friends, am I just magically not one anymore? Or maybe you "got used to" me. Or you forgot... like everyone else. Huh. But still, wow.

I don't know, I just don't feel ANY different from my straight female friends. Like... at all, except for the whole liking girls instead of guys thing. And I don't like being made to feel like I'm different from them. And plus, if you just saw me on the street, you would never think I was gay.

My orientation isn't a big deal at all, but it WOULD be nice to be taken seriously. It's bad enough to fear never finding a girlfriend because statistics are not in my favor, so why do I also have to deal with people not taking me seriously? Why? I don't understand. I mean, I am 17 and have never expressed interest in a dude. Surely that should at least make them think about it.

But at the same time, I can't imagine being ANY other way! Because, I mean, I get to like hot ladies, and there is nothing better than that! Girls like these hot ones. And it's even better because not only do I get to like super hot girls, but also I get to be a pretty girl too. I am not as pretty as any of those three, of course, but I am gonna be vain here for a minute and stroke my ego and say I don't think I look bad.

Anyway, yeah, this has been a pointless post by Super Duck.

Comments

Lehcure's picture

Those hot ones are all

Those hot ones are all ridiculously over-attractive. Do people that hot even exist? :P ..Anyway, congrats on your half-a-decade coming out! Wow, it has been five years for me, too! It doesn't seem that long ago. Oh, I'd definitely bet that if you actually did hit on a girl all day, she'd notice.

Super Duck's picture

Over-attractive? No such

Over-attractive? No such thing! :P And thanks. Hahaha, and yeah I would HOPE she would notice.

Lehcure's picture

Eh, you're right, no such

Eh, you're right, no such thing as over-attractive. I mean, those girls are still really pretty though..maybe even over-pretty.

Super Duck's picture

Yes, they are SUPER

Yes, they are SUPER gorgeous!

hellonwheels's picture

damn...

I guess its been about that for me too...funny how time flys.

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Super Duck's picture

I know, right? Definitely

I know, right? Definitely doesn't seem like 5 years.

jeff's picture

Heh...

Time just gets faster as you get older, get ready... ;-)

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

Super Duck's picture

Really? That's kind of hard

Really? That's kind of hard to think about.

elph's picture

It's true... regrettably!

Right now you are living in a period of "the perpetual present".

Enjoy it... for it will evaporate much too quickly!

RainbowTime's picture

5 years from me too

i came out to a good friend and my crush at 13

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

Super Duck's picture

I didn't tell any of my

I didn't tell any of my friends until I was 13.

RainbowTime's picture

its an awkward

Conversation telling the shyist girl ever that your gay and like her

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

jeff's picture

Yikes...

Those are really two separate conversations. A lot of information at once, otherwise.

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

RainbowTime's picture

same conversation

she took it rather well, although she did make it quite clear she was straight, but she was flattered though

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

cheese's picture

5 years?

I've only been out since i was 13. haha. but i guess that counts as almost five since i came out around my birthday. Im not sure if it was a month or two before. :p
i just remember getting my first girlfriend on the day after my birthday. haha.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero