I can't believe it has been 5 years since I first told someone I'm gay. 5 years is half a decade... That blows my mind. It was 5 years ago tonight, and I really have no idea how I remember that. But yeah, I was only 12. I figured it out really young. 5 years ago, I told my dad I was gay, and in retrospect, I really don't think he believed it. Why the hell should he, though, right? It's not like anyone else does, not even now. You know how many people believe me offline? Three. My mom, one friend, and this total bitch I went to middle school with. I bet you I could hit on a girl all freakin' day and not even have her notice. Ughhh.
It's exhausting sometimes. Okay, so, like, IG has this HOT friend that sits with us at lunch. She is a senior and, like I said, really hot. Anyway, yeah, so today she mentioned how much it frustrates her that her boyfriend is homophobic, and we started discussing it, and IG said she liked gay guys but is a little weirded out by lesbians "but wouldn't say it to one's face and can get used to them." And it's like... Come on, chick. You are supposed to be one of my best friends. What are you doing? Before we were friends, you were constantly on my case about being a lesbian, and now that we ARE friends, am I just magically not one anymore? Or maybe you "got used to" me. Or you forgot... like everyone else. Huh. But still, wow.
I don't know, I just don't feel ANY different from my straight female friends. Like... at all, except for the whole liking girls instead of guys thing. And I don't like being made to feel like I'm different from them. And plus, if you just saw me on the street, you would never think I was gay.
My orientation isn't a big deal at all, but it WOULD be nice to be taken seriously. It's bad enough to fear never finding a girlfriend because statistics are not in my favor, so why do I also have to deal with people not taking me seriously? Why? I don't understand. I mean, I am 17 and have never expressed interest in a dude. Surely that should at least make them think about it.
But at the same time, I can't imagine being ANY other way! Because, I mean, I get to like hot ladies, and there is nothing better than that! Girls like these hot ones. And it's even better because not only do I get to like super hot girls, but also I get to be a pretty girl too. I am not as pretty as any of those three, of course, but I am gonna be vain here for a minute and stroke my ego and say I don't think I look bad.
Anyway, yeah, this has been a pointless post by Super Duck.