Today was a horrible day.
I'm caught in this little depression and I can't really fight my way out of it. So my mood was already in a bad spot today to begin with, and then shit happens. I have like four school projects to do, and I can't really focus on anything school-related right now. I was REALLY looking forward to my appointment with my counselor so I could unload everything and get some help, but she fucking canceled because she's sick. I'm not mad at her, just mad at the situation. I've waited a long time for our meeting today. That was the big thing. Just ruined everything. I NEED to talk to her.
And to top it all off, I was in a horrible mood around Brittany. And it showed, no matter how hard I tried to suppress it. She actually said to me, "Wow Jenna, I've never seen you so hostile before." GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. So I apologized to her over and over again for being a moody asswipe, and I really hope she doesn't see me as one. But I still made her laugh, still talked to her as much as I could (which wasn't enough). That girl. I think I'm in love with her. I really do.
I dunno. It doesn't feel good to be unappreciated. I'm surrounded by all these people, and I have no one to talk to. I'm alone. Nobody cares. I'm facing everything on my own and it hurts. I'm alone and I'm scared.