Sorry I haven't been online lately. My laptop had a massive virus and some nice guy that works with my mom fixed it for me. So this Toshiba isn't a total piece of crap. I'll try to comment on people's journals, but it seems I haven't missed too much.
Today was my first day back at school, and it felt wonderful to be back. My best friend and I are speaking again, but she seemed adamant to not acknowledge what was said between us over break. And she now has four guys in her sight as of right now: one of her numerous exes, a 24-year-old, one of her crushes who is very close friends with Brittany, and the guy she ditched me for over break. This has been such a huge turn-off for me. I used to be SO attracted to her, but now I feel nothing towards her. In fact I'm kinda starting to get annoyed with her. It's so weird how just six months ago I was pouring my heart into our relationship, crying over her and being all whiny. I hate looking back on those times.
But oh well.
Brittany seemed happy to see me after such a long vacation. I think she was being genuine too, but it's hard to tell sometimes if she's genuinely happy around someone or if she's just being nice because she's such a sweetheart. I think she really likes me. Not romantically, of course. I just wish I could give her more to go on, y'know? She still doesn't know me enough. She WILL NOT get away. I can't let her get away. I WILL text her, and I WILL get closer to her. That most likely would mean a friendship and nothing more, and I'm PERFECTLY fine with that. Anything. I'll take anything. But damn, it felt so good to see her after all this time. I was going through major Brittany withdrawal.
Not much to report. I really really miss having P.E with Brittany, but Health will be the easiest freakin' A ever. Our teacher is one of the most laid back teachers I've ever met. Of course there are a TON of the bitchy preppy girls and dumbass douchebag jocks, but at least I have two good friends with me.
Is it weird that I have the smallest of crushes on my AP English teacher, even though she is in her 50's? I'm not saying I would ever do anything physical with her. God no. But I think she's very attractive for her age, and she's such an amazing teacher. She absolutely loved my essay about orientation. I got a 97 on it, and she NEVER gives students that good a grade, because she's just so picky. Another one of my essays got a 100. I am a teacher's pet. I live for English.
So my AP Psych teacher read my essay that in one part went into detail about my sexuality. I don't think he really cared, as long as I completed the assignment. I wasn't too stressed about it anyway, which makes me quite pleased with myself.
I got an A on my Chemistry final, but only because she gave us all a shit ton of extra credit. Otherwise I woulda gotten a B. I fucking hate Chemistry. As for my other classes I have no idea.