It's Been Awhile...

cheese's picture

Not really. Not compared to how long i usually disappear for.

I had a pretty good winter break i guess. I went to Los Angeles for my first few days. Hung out with my grandparents and my aunt and *new* uncle(they just got married like a month or two ago haha).
A day or two after i got back, my mom asked if i wanted to go with my stepdad to go drop off a load in West Virginia (he's a trucker :3). Of course, i said yes. I was gone for a week. We drove through Arizona, New Mexico, Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas (which i dislike very much, aside from the funny town names and The Land Of Oz), Missouri, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, West Virginia, Tennessee, and Arkansas.
I'm really excited about it cause I've never really been put of California. :D
I also, peed in 12 different states. Yes. Haha.

In other news, I dont remember if i told you guys what happened between my ex-friend Jo and I.
Hah. My first straight experience and it wasnt even wanted.
At least now I can say I dont like guys and be sure.
I'm glad he didnt try anything, he's a lot bigger and stronger.

But back to what i was getting at. Apparently he's been spreading a rumor, saying he actually got into my pants and I let him.
I dont think I'm angry, I am upset though. I find it ridiculous that he had to say shit like that just to make himself feel better.

I honestly think that me not letting him do anything after that first time made him get all butthurt and that's why he acted like a dick towards me.

Whatever. I know it isnt true, nor will it ever be. That's all that matters right?

I dont know.
I've yet to send out my entry form/drawing for a scholarship to an Art school. I dont want to get my hopes up and then not be able to. I think it's be fun. I dont know if it's what I want to pursue a career in, I've got my mind set on becoming a piercing artist. I know i can do both lol. And it would be nice to say "Hey, I've got a degree in Art." Lol.
It'd improve my skills, which is great too XD. Who doesnt want to be better at something they like?
I think I'll send it out today. I just need my mom to sign it, since I'm not 18 yet.

I want a girlfriend, but at the same time i dont. At least not til i know where I'm going to end up after highschool. I cant deal with the immaturity of dating younger, it bothers me. Not saying I'm any better, I just cant deal with it. I've grown up a lot since i was 15. I was pretty naive back then. Hell, I'm still really naive now.
I could always date older. But I dont want a long distance relationship. I dont think i can deal with not being able to see her. I might not be able to drive so far very often. Murr.
So i can either be single and lonely or have not have a serious relationship.
Which isnt possible. haha.

Whatever. I might just keep looking, i hate being lonely.

Oh! My New Year's resolution is to use a dental dam whenever i sleep with someone i dont know very well. Haha.
Safety is key.

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RainbowTime's picture

ive peed in

every council in scotland & the northern most 3 councils of england

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

Lehcure's picture

lol wasn't expecting to read

lol wasn't expecting to read dental dam in your resolution...but yeah, safe oral sex is just as important. They're hard to find, though...around here anyway, I'm sure in areas where there are smarter store owners they're easier to access.
It sounds like your break spent traveling around states was fun! If you hate being lonely, there isn't anything wrong with relationship that aren't serious. There isn't any harm in having fun. Also, I've found casual relationships help you get a more thorough understanding of what you realistically want in a partner for long term.

If you're interested in an art degree, I encourage you to send in the entry form for a scholarship!! It may not be what you end up pursuing, but options are wonderful to have.

cheese's picture

Thanks :D

Yeah, my ex thinks im weird for wanting to be safe xD.

I really appreciate the encouragement, i think that its one of the things i really need right now.

"So can you tell me what's left when everything you care for carries on, when broken dreams are built to make you strong. When the memories of yesterday fall through these broken dreams are built to help you through." ~Authority Zero