My God, I'm fucking boring

swimmerguy's picture

Or that's how I feel all the time, at least.

Bored, certainly.

My God, I know my circulation's never been fantastic wonders, I mean, I turn red really really easily, my blood always goes to my feet, and my hands if I let them hang down.
People always mention that, it drives me fucking insane, woah, your hands are all veiny and red!, No, really, I've never ever noticed that. It's a good thing we have perceptive you here to point out after a few seconds what I've never noticed in my 15 years of existence.
But recently it's seemed worse. Like while skiing, I'll be warm, my core will be like sweating, but my hands will be pretty well frozen.
And then I've been getting really lightheaded at certain points. I haven't actually like fainted yet, but yeah.
It's stupid.

And then I've been tired as fucking ass. I really don't know what it is.

Oh, something else, I've for some reason been dreaming a lot more than usual. Like usually, I go like 6 months between dreams.
But recently, I've been dreaming multiple times a night.

Man, I sound like a pussy, just venting all my problems on here.

But I haven't really been doing much interesting to write about. Like, skiing.
And that's it.
And spending too much time around my family.
And my thoughts haven't been too interesting either... That's why I feel like I'm boring.

And oh fucking fuck, FUCK I have homework due the day after tomorrow... Fuck that's gonna blow fucking ass, I don't wanna... And I have to do it all after skiing. Cause my family expects me to...
FUCK.
Then I have school the next fucking day.
Goddamnit. I'm not looking forward to that. There's nothing good in that.

Perhaps I just need hope, something to look forward to, because currently I don't really feel like I do.

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Dracofangxxx's picture

Actually, to cheer you up a little,

It's been snowing all weekend and nipple-freezing cold, so I bet it'll be icy as all fuck when you get back. So probably no school if it doesn't warm up :) I'd say don't do the least important homework if you're too tired :) <3 definitely do the english essay though, even if it's crappy ('cause we have that peer review day) so that you're not TOO overworked...

ANYWAYS U SAID U'D TXT ME N U HVNT GD CHAD
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That's redick!

swimmerguy's picture

Well...

Believe me, I woulda texted you so hard your tits would have fallen off, but I didn't realize till we got here that in Canada, I'm Roaming, so it would be like a billion dollars to do anything, which is why I haven't been texting anyone. If we have school tomorrow, I'll see you, if we don't, I'll text you :P

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Dracofangxxx's picture

if we don't have school, you should come over!

And play in the snow with me XP <3 but that sucks brah <3
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That's redick!

elph's picture

Cold hands and feet...

...for a teen with hardly an ounce of excess fat... what you describe sounds quite normal. The redness just says that there's blood (a good thing!) in the many veins underlying rather thin skin.

Maybe just a tad bit of hypochondria? :) Ask other skiers how they deal with cold hands!

Lightheadedness is likely traced to inadequate sleep or poor nutrition? Quite unlikely would be an inner ear infection. Check for normal blood pressure (you do have a blood pressure monitor at home?).

ferrets's picture

hmmm

i used to get all vieny-handed and light headed and energy devoided, but then i started drinking a huge amount of water every day this last summe, and its been alot better since then.

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