Need some opinions about things.

radiosilence95's picture

1) I saw yesterday that one of my friends had written the words "gay pride" on her cheeks and it made me mad. Because she's not gay, because she can't even begin to understand what it's like to be gay, because she can write that on her face shamelessly and I never could, because she probably just did it for attention...I dunno. I don't really know what I'd think if a straight person advertised gay pride. Depends on their intentions. Maybe I've no right to be irked with her, maybe she was being sincere. But this situation made me wonder...what do you guys think of straight people showing gay pride? Do you think it's...weird? Wrong? Acceptable?

2) I gave Amber Brittany's number because she wanted to text her. Maybe not the smartest thing to do. I think Amber's probably going to try and talk Brittany into texting me, maybe push her towards me to try and help me out. I dunno...I don't want Brittany getting weirded out by Amber. I don't want her to feel like Amber's cornering her or anything. Maybe Amber won't even say anything to her. I dunno. Was this a stupid decision?

(Also: my friend showed me pictures of Brittany on Facebook and oh. My. GOD. She is the most photogenic person ever. I saw pics of her in her homecoming dress and stuff. And when she takes pics of herself she doesn't do that obnoxious duck lips thing or sticks her ass out or poses in front of a mirror holding up her phone. She's just breath taking. Stunning. I've probably said this before, but I've seen a lot of beautiful girls, had a lot of crushes before, but she is definitely the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life. For real.)

Okay. Rant over. Anyway.

3) My dad's psycho girlfriend cornered my mom in Walgreens and started accusing her of lying to my sister and I about what happened in my dad's accident. She thinks my mom's been filling our heads with lies about my dad for five years. This woman and my dad are the kind of people who always have a warped perspective of pretty much EVERYTHING. His girlfriend said that she thinks I have a low self-esteem and I need a bigger variety of friends and I need to get involved in school sports and I need this and I need that, like she knows what's best for me, like she knows me.

Ugh.

She kept comparing me to her oldest son. If I had been there, I would have snapped. This woman knows NOTHING about me. What gives her the right to judge me? Fuck. Oh well, I suppose. It doesn't bother me anymore. This woman is the scum of the earth and I'm a far better person than she is and she's not worth my energy. She can go fuck herself. I mean, damn.

Yeah that's pretty much it.

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RainbowTime's picture

well,

1) depends if they are sincere or not if it is ill accept it but not sincere i will be pissed and probably start a fight

2) possibly, did she say why she asked for her number? and you could always text Amber and say you don't want her help

i know the girlfriend thing all to well, my dad recently contacted me and hes cleaned himself off and i met his girlfriend she is such a bitch, she actually went to me the most masculine women ever and said "you'd probably be happier wearing a dress" i almost attacked her and after seeing AJ genuinely went "you should really get a man"

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

radiosilence95's picture

Well, sincerity counts, yes.

Well, sincerity counts, yes. But I think getting too into it is just...weird. Like, you're not gay, but you're so obsessed with the idea of gay pride. A bit of support is fine, but there are limits. There aren't very many people like that though.

This isn't the first time my friend has done this. I just don't think she's being sincere, she just wants attention, whether it's positive or negative. That's why it made me mad.

Amber just said that she "wanted to talk to Brittany." Thing is, she has no reason to talk to Brittany unless it involves me. Another thing is, I think this could work to my advantage if Amber does this right. I know it's lazy of me to let my friend do some work for me with winning over Brittany, but I don't care. I'd like to play these stupid high school romance games just once in my life.

And wow your dad's girlfriend is a bitch.

RainbowTime's picture

ok

if shes doing it for attention that deserves super negative attention its not like attention its attention that crushes spirit mentally, physically & emotionally muahaha

did she say it in a certain tone? like "you know" or "um" or something because unless shes a good actress i could tell by tone

& yes she is a bitch

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

radiosilence95's picture

Well, that's the bad thing.

Well, that's the bad thing. Amber and I were texting when she told me she was gonna text Brittany. So I couldn't really read her tone or body language or anything. A big downside to texting, that is.

RainbowTime's picture

oh

maybe you can use this to your advantage? yes? i actually used 2 people to help me get closer to AJ

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

radiosilence95's picture

I'm thinking I'll ask Amber

I'm thinking I'll ask Amber to text Brittany tomorrow. I was gonna ask today, but Amber was in a really bad mood. I know this is a shortcut, but hey, that's how all the high school kids are going about it these days.

RainbowTime's picture

oh

maybe till shes in a better mood, shortcuts are best cuts hell i skipped alot of stuff happier about it today, these days? they've been doing it since i was in S1 6 years ago XD

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

stillgotlegs's picture

1) I think it would be

1) I think it would be different if she was advertising 'gay rights' because that's someone everyone can and should take part in. Putting 'gay pride' is almost flauting the fact that she has the freedom to write something like that on her cheek... if you know what I mean. Unless she's saying she's proud of gay people? It doesn't really make sense.

You could argue that her intentions are good though. I guess she's not out there spewing hatred xD

2) It'll be fiine. At the very worst, Amber and Brittany will text and that's all. At the best, it works the way you want it to.

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radiosilence95's picture

Yeah, that makes sense. It's

Yeah, that makes sense. It's not like she has any friends who are gay, other than me, and she thinks I'm just bisexual. It's kind of like being a poser or something. Like listening to one song by a band and claiming to be their biggest fan. She's always been desperate for attention before this, so...

Yeah, I guess you're right. Amber probably won't even say anything to her anyway. She always says she's gonna do things and then never follows through.

angel syndrome's picture

"I saw yesterday that one of

"I saw yesterday that one of my friends had written the words "gay pride" on her cheeks and it made me mad. Because she's not gay, because she can't even begin to understand what it's like to be gay, because she can write that on her face shamelessly and I never could, because she probably just did it for attention...I dunno."

Let's compare this to a similar example. I'm a homosexual man and I'm pro-choice, even though I'll never have to deal with the stigma around pregnancy and abortion, I'm entitled to my opinion on the subject, and I do have a right to free speech.

If I want to go to a protest around the issue, I can. Just because something doesn't "directly" concern me, I still have the capacity to feel empathy for others.

She can't understand what being gay is like, true - but by writing "gay pride" on her face, she's attracting on herself many of the issues we face as LGBTQ people. I'm sure her sexual orientation was put into question that day. People probably looked at her differently. By doing that, she placed herself the shoes of an LGBTQ person, and might be able to get some idea of what it's like for you and others.

If you, personally, are too ashamed* to advertise gay pride, that says more about your character than it does hers.

(*My use of the word ashamed here comes from your sentence :"she can write that on her face shamelessly and I never could", which implies that if you had that written on your face, you would be ashamed of it. Correct me if I'm wrong.)

"But this situation made me wonder...what do you guys think of straight people showing gay pride? Do you think it's...weird? Wrong? Acceptable?"

Going to quote Martin Luther King Jr.'s "I Have A Dream" Speech:

"The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom."

radiosilence95's picture

It doesn't bother me that

It doesn't bother me that she wrote it on her face...I enjoy seeing support from straight people. But it's her intentions that irk me...she's the kind of girl who will do anything for attention. It just seemed that she was exploiting the whole gay pride contraversy just so people would give her a second glance, not because she truly cared about the concept she was advertising.

And I honestly have no idea how I feel about the social aspect of my sexuality. I've come to terms with myself, and I don't FEEL ashamed. I don't feel guilty for being attracted to girls, but I'm still not out of the closet fully yet. It's just really weird. Right now, I just don't have the courage to write gay pride across my face and parade around the school. I guess I have to take baby steps to being fully out, whereas she could simply write gay pride across her face and have nothing to lose and no feel no apprehension because it's not who she is.