This is very unorganized, but I just felt like getting something out.

socialist's picture

I feel a lot more comfortable around other gays. For example: my sister's friend is gay and the only person I know of who is completely homosexual and out of the closet. I see him in the hall a lot for some reason that I can't explain. Well, I just feel a lot more comfortable around him because he is also gay. (I think this new girl in one of my classes might be lesbian because she wears a rainbow wristband; I'll probably find out eventually.) I really want to go to one of the GSA meetings at my school, but I can't do that. Back to the topic of the sentence before the one before this one: I've been thinking about telling that guy that I'm gay because then someone like me would know. (The closest thing I have to that is a mostly-gay who knows, but he hates me for no reason, so we never talk.) I don't know whether I should tell him though. I'd like to think that he's trustworthy because he probably understands, but, based on what my sister has said about him, he sounds really annoying. Still, I feel like my life would be a lot better if he knew. Not even King Tubby and natural highs can get my mind off of this.

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ferrets's picture

why....

may i ask, do you feel you cant go to yor schools GSA?

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"

Punkish Insanity's picture

I like that video....Like, LOVE that video

But other than that...To actually comment upon your journal....

Coming out is one of the hardest humps for us gays to get over. They really don't say that for no reason. You instantly have to grow a thicker skin to terrible comments, rumors, and people stabbing you in the back. Not a fun experience...
But!
Through coming out to nearly everyone I meet, I've gained an extreme amount of wisdom towards people. I get to hear everyone's opinions and reasoning on the topic, and it usually gets into deeper topics that everyone debates over. I get to see what other people think, and sometimes even change their minds about some of those topics, most likely their attitude towards gays. Through showing them that I am a rational, perfectly (sort of) normal person like them, they sometimes realize that it's an irrational hate.
And, if you're not a big people person like me, coming out gives you.....Self-worth? Something like that, but much different; deeper, more golden, and stronger. You feel like you have control over yourself, and can project that to the world without a worry or care in the world. You grow deeply as a person, and learn things about yourself that you've never even noticed before.

So, even if it's just one person, I suggest coming out to this other boy. Sometimes, depending on who you are, people can be either more mature or immature. Give him a chance, and maybe he'll surprise you.

Good luck, man, and if you ever need to get shit off your chest feel free to message me. =)

~ It's a cosmic joke that I'm a lesbian, because I understand men so well but women are a complete mystery to me.

socialist's picture

Nevermind.

Well, I've already come out to a lot of other people, so I know. But I decided not to tell him. No pros and a few cons, so no.
If you like that video, it isn't even his best.