So anyway, it's late and I'm tired, so I'll hold off the philosophizing tonight.
Uh, I got yelled at today by the high school swim coach because I can't go to a swim meet on MLK weekend, because my family made reservations in October to go skiing at Whistler. And because I missed 5:30 AM practice yesterday.
Yeah. Fucking A. I have practice at fucking 7 AM tomorrow. On a fucking Saturday. Not a fun day.
I've wondered about not doing swimming next year, but I flip flop about it all the time, because it's a lot of work, and the coach is really asstight, and it's not my favorite thing in the world to do, to get up at the asscrack of dawn to go jump into cold water and swim my guys out, seriously, coffee is the only thing that makes that bearable. But then, I do enjoy the guys on the team, and it really helps keep me in great physical shape, and there is something to it, after a deathly workout, having coffee and donuts on the pool deck, with nothing ahead in the day but whatever I want.
It's satisfying. In ways.
So I'm just wondering if I could independently do that, do I need a team to keep my ass whipped into doing it? I dunno. Maybe we'll see when this season's over and I'll probably be independent, not on a team, for a while...
Oh, and about CAG. So, recently, not much has been happening. I ain't gotten my hug. I'll have to get to that.
But anyway, it's really, eh, really, awkward, cause in class I sometimes glance in his direction and he's looking at me, and we get really brief, awkward moments of eye contact :P
And then today, we were talking in the halls for a bit, walking next to each other, and he was walking really close to me, like bump into my side and leg all the time close. So yeah, pretty cool :P