This journal contains little personal information, only scholarly stuff that I am interested in. This is the only exception:
A rap song that I actually enjoy listening to. :D
There is no reason to assume that consciousness and perception mean anything. Because the mind itself does not perceive anything the self perceives the self is irrelevant. As a result of this realization, one comes to the conclusion that one’s own mind does not exist. And due to that belief, one must also believe that it is a part of nonexistence. Because nothing outside the mind exists, the mind itself does not exist, and nonexistence is the only rational thing one can believe.
Firstly, consciousness doesn't exist. All my perception is an illusion. It cannot be real because it is cosmically detached from the self. There is no proof of its validity. Everything one sees, feels, hears, smells, and tastes is unrelated to one's own mind, which has no communication with what is outside of it. The closest thing to communication is through speech, which is unreliable because it cannot make the exterior feel what the mind feels. Because of this, the self must be completely detached from what it perceives. So everything outside the self could be nonexistent.
This doesn’t mean that another being outside of the self is nonexistent. The universe possibly has double standards, each organism being its own existence and nothing outside of it being relevant. However, there is no proof that other people actually are; they might just be illusions. From another perspective, two separate people might be fully existent, but cannot communicate with each other’s minds. This is because one cannot communicate with one’s own mind.
The mind is detached from the senses by some cosmic wall; it is an independent thing. One knows nothing about one's own mind because it is unrelated to anything one perceives. The thoughts are unrelated to the mind because they are entirely based on perception of the external world which does not exist. One can't access my mind and therefore knows absolutely nothing about it. So what does this mean? What is a person? If one's mind is what defines one and it is something one is not attached to, then the self is not part of the self, but just an imaginary extension of this abstract idea that is the self. It is just the perception of a nonexistent material universe. But if that's all that one is, then one does not exist.
Furthermore, the mind does not produce thoughts and it is just something that is in its own isolated cosmos. It is attached to nonexistence because it is the only thing that really does exist and that it is completely unaware of this perception, not only because it is isolated, but also because it cannot be aware of anything due to the fact that nothing else exists, so it can't have knowledge or opinions of any kind. But if this is all that exists and it perceives nothing, not itself or any illusions like matter, and it is directly attached to nonexistence, then not even the mind exists. It is nonexistence itself and it is everything and nothing, it is endless.
Consciousness is merely an illusion, cosmic nothingness. Being independent from the mind, the self does not subsist. The mind, because it unattached to consciousness, is inexistent. Because of the fact that nothing outside the self exists, the self does not exist, and the mind of the self does not exist, nothingness is the only thing one can safely believe in.
I'm suddenly interested in neurology, so I decided to do some research. I'll use Chad's method of explaining what I learn in journal entries to better understand them, but I'll mostly just use it for notes:
The telencephalon is the exterior dorsal (upper) section of the brain. It contains the cortex, the outermost section, which makes up the surface of the brain.
The diencephalon is the central part of the brain. It contains organs such as the thalamus, through which all information that goes to the rest of the brain passes, and the hypothalamus. (A fun fact about this is that a part of the hypothalamus is larger in heterosexual men and homosexual women than in homosexual men and heterosexual women.)
The mesencephalon is ventral to (below) the diencephalon and contains the superior colliculi, which controls reflexes to certain visual things, like squinting at bright light and being attracted to movement.
The metencephalon is caudal to (behind) the mesencephelon and contains the cerebellum, which coordinates motor functions, and the pons, which links the cerebellum with the area in the telencephalon that carries out these functions.
Finally, the myelencephalon, or medulla oblongata, connects the brain with the spinal chord, allowing the brain to control motor functions and allowing the signals in the spinal chord received from the peripheral nervous system to reach the brain.
The forebrain refers to the telencephalon and the diencephalon and the hindbrain refers to the mesencephalon, the metencephalon, and the myelencephalon. The brain stem is the structure at the bottom of the brain.