I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE!

Tycoondashkid's picture

i hate it so much i just want it to end right now!

my mum does nothing but drink and smoke and she is the most abusive person ive ever fucking met.
her boyfriend is a twat that all he does is be the fucking boss and treat me like shit.
My dads never there when i need him to be for me.
ive got no friends.
and i get treated like fucking shit by everyone else in my miserable exsistence.

why can't i just die!

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XxAmandaShortaayxX's picture

Woah bro.

Hey there. Listen.. this is a good site to vent to. Im not sure how i can help but i wanna let you know i read this and ill be thinking of you and hoping for the best fer youu. but dont say you wanna die. things will get better someday. im here if you need someone to talk to. btw.. if ur feeling suicidle or anything.. tell someone. or go to www.getourhelp.webs.com and talk to us and find people who care(:
-AmandaaaKbabyy(:

Tycoondashkid's picture

thanks for the link

thanks for the link

MaddieJoy's picture

We're here for you!

Oh, don't kill yourself! I know it seems like a bunch of strangers don't understand your situation, and we probably don't, but the people here can support you and we do care.
You should make a journal entry for each thing that goes right in your life, as well as venting about the bad things, and maybe you'll feel a little better.

"It's a helluva start, knowing what makes you happy."
--Lucille Ball

Tycoondashkid's picture

i think i will

i think i will

swimmerguy's picture

Sometimes

I just have to think, I'm 15. My life, before it's over, is going to change beyond imagining, the things I'll see and do, I have absolutely no clue.
But no matter how shitty it gets now, I know that before the end, it will change, and it won't keep getting worse and worse, there will be a point, when it turns around, and gets better. It will. At some point.

Sometimes, I only feel motivated to live just by the thought of how interested I'll be to learn everything that'll happen to me in the future, the wonderful things I'll see, and how much smaller my world will be and how much I'll miss out on if I killed myself now.
Which is why I'd never kill myself now, I'm way too young, there's plenty of time for things to get better, nothing is set in stone at this age, and I'd be cutting off so much from my life.

So don't, don't kill yourself. Don't let a moment of impulse cut off decades from your life, believe me, it'll be all the more spectacular if you see it through.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt5ghXdq6Z0&safe_search=on

Tycoondashkid's picture

i doubt it

my life i increasingly getting worse ill probably die before 40 suicide or not it not going to get better for me im a lost cause just waiting for the inevitable eternal silence less and less people care for me daily

Dracofangxxx's picture

Hm. Family situation is similar here sometimes.

Just wanna put in my advice... I used to be depressed/cut/wanna kill myself, then I realized that you can't let people who continue to hurt you have power over you.

Honestly? Just laugh at how immature they are. She's your mom and she doesn't do anything but drink and smoke? Haha! How dumb! What a bad parent!

There'll come a day you find what makes you really happy, and you'll just embrace that instead of people. You may feel weak and in pain, but here's a secret:

Once you find happiness after this pain (and you will), you will appreciate it more than anyone else. And it'll be very difficult to be that unhappy once you've appreciated the little things you have in life.

Things can, and will get better, if you just hang on and try to improve your outlook. You'd be suprised what a good attitude can do to your mood!
-
That's redick!

Tycoondashkid's picture

laugh ha laughing causes me

laugh ha laughing causes me more pain, my mum never cared and never will care i know that i couldn't honestly give a fuck what she thinks.

the only thing at makes me happy is weekends and thats just for 5 minutes a week then i remember on Sunday ill have to suffer all over again and its worse every week.

little things in life? food poisoning cheers me up because its an excuse to be on my own thats how pathetic i am.

thats the thing though there wont be any happiness there is no light at the end of the tunnel, the moving hand has rite and the die has been cast ill suffer forever.

Tycoondashkid's picture

laugh ha laughing causes me

laugh ha laughing causes me more pain, my mum never cared and never will care i know that i couldn't honestly give a fuck what she thinks.

the only thing at makes me happy is weekends and thats just for 5 minutes a week then i remember on Sunday ill have to suffer all over again and its worse every week.

little things in life? food poisoning cheers me up because its an excuse to be on my own thats how pathetic i am.

thats the thing though there wont be any happiness there is no light at the end of the tunnel, the moving hand has rite and the die has been cast ill suffer forever.

MaddieJoy's picture

"It's a helluva start,

"It's a helluva start, knowing what makes you happy."
--Lucille Ball
...so why don't you try taking the greatest female comedian's advice and find something that makes you feel great that you can do? I discovered theatre when I was little, and now I use it to distract me from what's going on in my life (only when something's going wrong, of course). Also, doing activities with other people can help create a group of people who can support you when you need it.

Tycoondashkid's picture

but nothing makes me feel

but nothing makes me feel great

Tycoondashkid's picture

but nothing makes me feel

but nothing makes me feel great

anarchist's picture

I don't have experience here,

but try finding an outlet. Maybe music. even if you're just screaming into a microphone. Whitehouse might inspire you. Very angry music:

angel syndrome's picture

if you kill yourself they

if you kill yourself
they all win

Tycoondashkid's picture

but its the only way out

but its the only way out

angel syndrome's picture

no, you will grow older and

no,

you will grow older and if need be,
you will never have to see them again.
that is, if you are patient. suicide is a fast track to never seeing them again.

Tycoondashkid's picture

no

ill never grow old no matter what.
id rather go fast than stop completly

Mogul's picture

This page helped me a lot!

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