Ramble.

radiosilence95's picture

I've been giving a lot of thought on my career plan lately. I'd LOVE to major in creative writing, but...it really gives me little wiggle room. I'm definitely going to pursue a career as an author, but it's time to be realistic. I might not sell well, or it may take me years to get published, or I may never get published at all. I need a steady source of income while I'm working on my novels. Unfortunately, there aren't many jobs you can get with a creative writing major, other than, of course, being a writer.

People have suggested being an English professor, but that requires a PhD in English, which I do not want. People have suggested being a high school English teacher, but I hate kids and it'd have to be an extremely mature and motivated class. Plus teaching at a high school level doesn't seem to pay very well. Being an editor or publisher sounds boring, and that requires business knowledge. I just don't know. I need to come up with a plan. I could minor in something else, maybe psychology, and find a career in that field while trying to get published. I really don't wanna gamble on my future.

My poetry is in full fruition. I write basically every evening, and I always feel accomplished, even if I only manage to craft a couple lines.

I texted Brittany and told her about an idea I had for the newspaper. Perfect excuse to text her. We talked about my idea after school for awhile, while walking to her locker. Just the two of us. I think that's the first time we've had a real conversation alone, without being surrounded by her fan club. It was lovely, but, as usual, still too short. I've also noticed that Brittany prefers face to face conversation to texting. She's very talkative through text, sending three-page responses, but the conversations themselves are woefully brief. She's not the kind of girl who exchanges 50 texts with one person as one long conversation. And I respect that.

According to my transcripts I have 21 high school credits. I could graduate early, but I won't. I have a 3.8 GPA, and my class ranking is 79 out of 494. I'm in the top 15th percentile, but for some reason that's not good enough. I want to be in the top 5th. I want a 4.0 GPA. Why am I not satisfied?

I flunked my Calculus test. It was a sample from an AP exam, which is really unfair to give as a chapter test. But that's not an excuse. I'll be retaking it after school tomorrow. Pisses me off.

My mom hasn't brought up my sexuality since I came out a week ago. I'm not sure if I should be worried or not. I'm not going to push anything on her. I guess if she has any questions, she can talk to me. I just hope she understands that one conversation about this isn't the end. It has to be an ongoing conversation.

I bought a couple boxes of chocolate from Wal Mart. Hey, it's on sale. Some of the chocolates are so weird. I didn't even know Roman nougat existed. Maple chocolate cream? How...fancy.

Wow this journal has absolutely no point to it. I just kinda felt like rambling about pointless things.

Comments

MacAvity's picture

Hmm...

The only professional author I know personally was a high school computer science teacher before getting her first novel published. Writing books is one of the careers for which you least need a degree in the field.

radiosilence95's picture

Really? Huh. Well I suppose

Really? Huh. Well I suppose that's reassuring. I'm thinking I'm just gonna go for the creative writing major, because I am NOT going to force myself to major in something I have little interest in. That would be absolute torture. My gut's telling me to go for it, but things can change. I'll figure it all out.

elph's picture

You might consider...

...a double major: Creative Writing and Theater. Many in your state of indecisiveness choose this path.

jeff's picture

Err....

That removes the whole fallback angle, though, if you're prepared to write a novel *or* do a show. ;-)

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

radiosilence95's picture

Ah, the whole double major

Ah, the whole double major idea might be worth looking into. But I don't enjoy theater. I can't act, sing, or dance, and I don't think I could write or direct a play. I was forced to take drama class in junior high because of a gaping hole in my schedule, and I hated every second of it.

SometimesY's picture

I had the same thoughts

I had the same thoughts about the creative writing major. That's what I am right now, but next year I'm changing. I'm going into public relations in the music industry. We'll see how that one turns out.

radiosilence95's picture

Public relations in the

Public relations in the music industry? That seems broad. What exactly do you do in that area?

SometimesY's picture

It's a lot more specific

It's a lot more specific than I stated. It's just a really complicated title for it that my school gives, so I didn't type it. Basically I'd be qualified to be a band manager (which is what I want) or and agent (which wouldn't be terrible) or a publicist for musicians. There's a number of other things, but those are the main ones that I'm concentrating in.

jeff's picture

Hmm...

To quote David Mamet: "Those with something to fall back on invariably fall back on it. They intended to all along. That is why they provided themselves with it. But those with no alternative see the world differently."

I did the fallback, and now I tend to charge a lot of money to do work I hate, which also puts me in a mindset to not pursue my own work.

Tread cautiously. Gambling on your future is everything not about creative writing, not the other way around.

"Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life." - Confucius

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

radiosilence95's picture

I've talked to everyone

I've talked to everyone about a creative writing major. Friends, family. I haven't received too much support, honestly. My friends and my mom all seem to think that I'm in over my head here, striving to be an author. Maybe I am. But I know it's something I want. It also doesn't help that I over-think everything, that I worry way too much. So I've been busying myself with the what ifs when I should really just go for it.

jeff's picture

Well...

Failure still puts you miles ahead of all of the people who never try.

And, to some degree, people do tend to resist and discourage people from following their dreams because a lot of them never pursued theirs. So, if you succeed at it... what does that say about them?

The whole college major thing is sort of overblown anyway. At big software companies, I've had VPs who were French Literature majors, people running entire product management teams who worked their way up without ever going to college. It is way less linear than people make it out to be, unless you are going into law, medicine or something uber-specific. Majors are a trajectory, not a path.

I make more money than everyone I know who writes novels, but I keep trying to get out of my career and do that anyway...

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)