today....

Tycoondashkid's picture

god today........
dam hate Tuesdays well to be true hate everyday except Saturdays
first 3 periods were with the same teacher, single latin where i had to write a investigation on chariot racing, then double classics where what a shock had to do a different investigation, latins ok gives me a chance to be calm, quiet and think to myself. the class and the subject itself isn't that bad i guess.

but fucking classics its like WW2 every lesson first parts just the computer room bleh just this one fucking homophobe who mocks every GBT in existence but, again what a shock loves lesbians.
the second part as soon as the teacher leaves the room, Feudal Japan meets Middle Ages meets WW2, paper shurikans fly threw the air, paper plains fly and large clumps of paper get launched like rocks from a catapult.

4th period was Computing with one of my favourite teachers, but because of a couple of assholes were far behind on the multimedia project and now we are no longer allowed te talk te each other.

5th bleh doing a shit ton of work for the false promise of a movie in history not much else for that

6th period was really funny i guess where one of my female friends put proper lipstick on some of my male friends who looked like drag queens it was hilarious made even funnier when one of the guys kissed the other on the cheek as a joke. so he had lipstick which made it funnier because it got on his shirt and he had a girlfriend so possible break up causing pain which always makes me happy.

i think i have alot of emotional problems:
the voices being the obvious one, i dont want rid of them but i want to know where they came from and how to control them

a massively over the top HATRED for my mother i think that bitch deserves everything she gets she gets, i dont want to talk about her.......

a irrational fear of anything that can hurt me that is not human! its on and off but everything can and will scare me!

the list goes on and on and on....... a million more i can mention

the worst thing is that josh hasn't replied :( i hope theres a good reason

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MaddieJoy's picture

Are you afraid of upstairs?

Are you afraid of upstairs? I have this massive bed and I'm always afraid it's gonna fall through the floor (which is really creaky) and land on the car. Talk about irrational fears!

"It's a helluva start, knowing what makes you happy."
--Lucille Ball

Tycoondashkid's picture

i was terrified 4 months ago!

i was seriously terrified!
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angel syndrome's picture

"so he had lipstick which

"so he had lipstick which made it funnier because it got on his shirt and he had a girlfriend so possible break up causing pain which always makes me happy."

Why does this make you happy?

In regards to your voices... It's hard to tell if these are intrinsic forces or extrinsic (from within you or from the outside). My advice would be to ignore them - the more attention you give to voices, apparitions, ect. The more they have the potential to ruin you.

Tycoondashkid's picture

1) just the idea of two people who cant argue arguing

2) pain is truly what i know best so its always a fimilar sensation which brings happiness that its not on me

oh i try not to give them more attention
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