Huh. Wonder how many times that title's been used for someone's first post. 'Cept this isn't my first post. And I'm confused in the opposite direction.
I have, of late, been disconcertingly attracted to people of the male variety, and lost much of the interest I once had in females. Some time ago I made this diagrammatic representation of sexuality, and plotted myself on it somewhere inwards of the seven-o'clock position:
Now I think I'd plot myself closer to two o'clock, and maybe a little closer to the center. And even that might be too close to 'Women are Sexy' for where I actually am now. It's scary. And it's not even in a gay way - I've been feeling more female recently than I have in quite a while. So much so that I'm tempted to go to the next Ball (not the one this coming Friday, but the next one after that) in a dress, and wondering whether I really belong in the men's bathroom after all (although not wondering hard enough to actually try using a women's room). I've finally developed a pretty healthy relationship with my vagina, so much so that, for the first time in probably ever, menstruating is an annoying obstacle to masturbation. Which means that apparently I didn't masturbate nearly enough before very, very recently. And the improvement is probably due largely if not entirely to a certain sexy man who shall not be named because I'm at the do-not-speak-of-it-directly stage of obsession, which is a stage in which all of my obsessions spend a pretty long time. Yeah.
And yes, this also all coincides with the unusually high levels of happiness I've been experiencing lately. Maybe it's just the wanking. I find it hard to believe that turning straighter would make me happier... I don't want to be straight! I came through a lot to admit I was queer, and then as soon as I'm just about completely out and transitioned and what-all, this happens? Really?
I know I've been in love with a girl.
I know I use men's restrooms.
I know I pack my pants.
I know I like staring at boobies.
So I've got to be at least a little bit bi and a little bit genderqueer, yeah? Straight girls don't do those things.
And still I'm stupidly happy.