To (Most of) My Family

MaddieJoy's picture

If you could understand,
I’d surely tell you
I’d tell you pain
And pride
I’d tell you joy
If you could hear the songs
And screams and laughter
I’d let you in my heart
And make you stay

But who can ever know the fear I’m facing?
The monster I must fight
To reach the great Abyss
And looking down, confront my fears
And build a bridge of dreams
No one can know the ecstasy of winning
Or feel the jaws of death if I should fail
But if silence stays I’ll be forever spinning
And never make it out to see the day

If you could understand, I’d surely tell you
I’d tell you what I think
And feel
And see
If you could see through my eyes
See the horrors
I’d let you in my heart and make you stay

But who can ever see the loved ones staring?
When I speak my mind
And cross their thoughts
And looking down, retract my dearest values
For all my thoughts in their eyes come to naught
No one can feel the heat my shame has brought me
Or even known that I have been ashamed
If I dare speak I’ll be forever pining
For love I’ve lost and light that’s all gone out

If you could understand, I’d surely tell you
I’d let you in my heart and make you stay
But better that you stay an ignoramus
And not know who it is who, shrinking, loves you
Until your dying day

Comments

elph's picture

Beautiful...

...and yet, sad: those final 3 lines!

But... way too often... so true.

Be an exception!