Thursday was the seniors' last day at my school. They are gone now. All they have left is the graduation ceremony. Do you know what that makes me? Do you? Huh? I, SUPER DUCK, AM A NEW SENIOR! I am so happy right now. I can't stop smiling. I have waited for this day for as long as I can remember. This is the happiest I've been in a long time! It was also my last organic chem quiz Thursday. If I pass the exam, I can get up to a 70. I'm actually not worried, though, because the head of the science department said today that the class will be "taken care of" on our transcripts since it was such a miserable all-around failure. The guy who had the highest grade has a 72!
I miss my senior friends, but I'm so happy. No, wait, not my senior friends... My done-with-high-school friends!
But yeah, I have become a senior. I was unofficially one on Thursday when all of the old seniors finished school, but today, at the end of the assembly, they said we were the new seniors! And they called our class president SENIOR class president! Ahhh, I am so happy!
Of course, there were detractors, like the asshole teachers who wouldn't let us exercise our new senior privileges, but FUCK THEM I JUST BECAME A SENIOR NO ONE IS RUINING THIS FOR ME
Today is one of the happiest days of my life. I am a senior. In one year's time, high school will be nothing but a bad memory. Just knowing that makes me feel AMAZING. I hate high school so much, and it's almost over. All I have left is one year. This is real. This is happening.
I was so sad a year ago. A year ago today, FCG left. I still remember it perfectly... I felt so empty and helpless and afraid then, but I'm so happy today.
Oh, by the way, she's back in town, or she's about to be. I'm so scared I'll see her somewhere and have to talk to her. I just don't know what I'd do. I mean, if we see each other, I can't just run away and hide, now can I? I'd have to talk to her. I would probably either throw up or devolve into some sort of bawling idiot. Maybe I won't leave my house this summer until I move to Nashville, if I do. Apparently, my super hot friend is possibly going to work with her this summer. They might be lifeguards together.
You know, I'm honestly not sure if it's more upsetting that I lost my chance with FCG or that I lost my chance to party with her super awesome dad. Oh, wait, nothing is upsetting today because I just became a senior. Seriously, though, her dad kicks so much ass.
I didn't mean to type so much about her. I'm not in the mood for angst. The focus of this journal is me becoming a senior. I'm happy now. But given the day, I can't help but miss that silly FCG just a little bit. It's been hard this past year, trying to forget about her and all that. Doesn't feel like it's been a whole year at all.
Um... CAN I JUST SAY ONE MORE TIME THAT I JUST BECAME A SENIOR AND WILL BE OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL IN A YEAR? I'm sooooo excited! I can't wait!