The term "passing" is when someone is seen as the gender that they want to be read as, aka, they "pass" as a different gender. I don't like this word so much in this sense because then it seems like it's all a game, some sort of evil scheme--a deception or something of the sort.
However, it's a lot easier to say that rather than explain the whole thing every time. So I don't know. I won't get disgusted when people use the term 'passing'. I just don't like it, but it's a personal thing. I don't think that everyone in the trans* community, for example, needs to agree with me. I'm just stating my own opinion.
Today was the first day of one of my summer classes. And like the first day of any class, I wore extremely bright, stand-out-colored clothes. So going by all the "passing" tips on YouTube for trans*guys, I was clearly NOT going to pass. I wore a bright, fluorescent orange zip-up sweatshirt and a bright purple shirt underneath. I didn't bind.
In the one class I had today, the professor was asking people to introduce themselves and when it was our turn, he would put to us and say "ma'am" or "sir," in order to indicate the person who was going next. He did that for everyone. Except me. He looked at me and I don't know if he hesitated or not, but he didn't say "ma'am" or "sir." This made me so unbelievably happy.
It goes to show that you don't have to be a certain way to fit any sort of label. Just be yourself. It sounds self-explanatory and cheesy, but it helps me to think of this because so often I blame my non-"passing" on the fact that I don't follow what so many other trans*guys say are the "musts" in order to pass.
(More to come about "passing" in a future journal--maybe tomorrow's, which will also mention androgyny and sense of self/identification?) (Or tomorrow I may, instead, write about gender and having a job and whether or not the two coincide at all or interact ever.)
And for the side of bleach?
Long story short, I started bleaching my teeth. It hurts like hell and is so painful. But I have to keep doing it 'til the 24th or something to get the effect, apparently.
Anyone have any good tips?
Thanks and hoping you all are having an okay (at least!) day.