You know how Monday is dinner with friends night, and how Brittany is coming with us from now on? Well she didn't come last night because she thought we did this on Sundays and by the time I texted her and asked her if she was going she had already eaten dinner. So now I have to wait another week to see this girl. And on top of that, my friend Haylee, who is the funniest of the bunch and could've really cheered me up, didn't show up. AND my friend's obnoxious little sister decided to come and bring her on-and-off boyfriend with her. AND my friend Judd's annoying acquaintance also showed up. I don't even LIKE any of those particular people. So dinner last night was boring and sad and not anywhere near fun.
Brittany and I got into a long conversation through text about her graduating and our plans for the future and shit. She confided in me about how badly she wants to be free from her parents, how her whole family drives her crazy. I wonder sometimes how much they hold her back. And then she told me that she bawled her eyes out during her very last band concert, and I said, "You are a very emotional person, aren't you? You're so adorable."
Fuck. Fuckity fuck fuck. I didn't even realize how obvious that was until after I sent the message. And I was obvious again when she talked about how awesome it would be if we ended up at the same college and I said, "Ohmygosh Brittany, we could be roommates! I would love that!"
I have dropped so many hints, both accidental and intentional, that it would really surprise me if she DIDN'T know I liked her. I mean, when a lesbian calls you adorable and shares with you her poetry and blushes whenever she's around you and hangs on to every last word you say then yeah, it's pretty obvious.
This is bad. I miss her soooooooo much. I know I've already said this before, but I do.