Well, Hello (A New Introduction)

centerfielder08's picture

So I don't know how many of you that I know are still on here. But for those who don't know me, I'll say a bit about myself.

My name is Eli and I attend University. I identify as transgender (trans*). I identify as a guy/boy/boi/dude, but I do NOT identify as a man. I prefer male pronouns.

Most of the people to whom I've come out, I do so as a lesbian. I am out to my family as a lesbian.

I have started to come out as trans* to people--mainly peers, but to some of my professors, and my therapist, as well. Most of this has happened really recently--basically since about April 5th for the majority of them.

I don't have any one set way of how to come out, but I've tried different things: writing a letter, writing a note in Spanish, face-to-face, at an open mic night...

I do not identify on the gender binary.

April 27th (?) of last year I began a drastic new hair style--short and more androgynous (I used to have hair down to my shoulders). I've kept up with that and its been a huge boost of self-esteem for me.

I live fully as a female, however.

I do not plan on going on hormones (Testosterone) or getting surgery. I am not looking for someone to try to convince me to get either of these things. I am transitioning in my own way and if you have questions, feel free to ask.

One thing I've tried to shy away from mentioning is my sexuality. It is something I have tried so much to label but it never seems to really suit me, the label I mean. I'm working on discovering myself and although I do not feel comfortable or supported within my sexuality, I am trying to eventually get there, I hope.

Feel free to ask me questions and stuff. And if you have questions related to identifying as trans*, please know that some questions are completely inappropriate and out of line. If you ask it, I will lead you to Google or some other website.

Some things I'm not comfortable with others asking me about include the following: why I "should" be on hormones/get surgery/go to gender therapy, coming out to parents.
Some inappropriate questions deal with what I just mentioned above, as well as: genitalia, my name--I am Eli and that is it, do not ask me of my "real" name.

I have the right to only answer questions of which I am comfortable answering. Please note that I'm not saying this to be rude. I understand sometimes questions arise out of not knowing and having a genuine curiosity to learn and to an extent, I do not mind educating about some trans* topics and talking about my own experiences. However, please do not assume that I will answer every question regarding gender that a person may ask me. This is only to protect myself and to allow me to stay in a place where I am able to appreciate my difference in gender identity.

(If you've read this far, you're an awesome person....so thank you.)

I know I keep starting and stopping journaling on here, but I am trying to journal again and get back into that habit. Some things I hope to touch upon in my future journals include: different ways of transitioning, "trans* enough," bodies in regards to identity, my "past" self versus my present self, coming out to peers and professors, school and jobs, and other topics.

Please feel free to leave a message on here or private message me in my inbox about most anything and I'll be happy to assist you in any way I can or happy to just talk / listen in general. Also feel free to list topics that you'd like me to touch upon--I AM up to writing about different topics and not just trans*-specific issues, but give me a heads up of some of what you all would like to read.

I feel like I am forgetting something, but I cannot think of it in this moment, so I'll let you know a little later if I do.

Thank you very very much,
Eli.

Comments

Sam2000's picture

Welcome back!

Glad to have you back on here, and your life sounds very interesting! Can't wait to read more of your journals : ))

Sam

centerfielder08's picture

Thank you, Sam!! :) I'm glad

Thank you, Sam!!

:) I'm glad to be back :)

swimmerguy's picture

Never did talk to you all that much

But it's good to see you back nonetheless.

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centerfielder08's picture

Thanks! Yeah, we never

Thanks! Yeah, we never really talked that much. We should change that, you seem awesome.

radiosilence95's picture

Welcome back. You seem to

Welcome back. You seem to have a habit of disappearing and showing up again. Always happy to have you back, and please stay awhile this time! :)

centerfielder08's picture

I know! I want to kick the

I know! I want to kick the habit!
I want to be here and STAY here :). Thanks.

Cute icon, by the way.